I'm soooooooooooooooooooooo.....

FREAKING ANGRY RIGHT NOW!!

Everyone assumes I should be doing all the things at home. Does my work and school means nothing?

So now that everything is in a mess, its my fault? I tried ok, not like the person who's at home all day in his room doing nothing. I cook for him and he leaves it there for me to clean up. The only reason why he did clean up was cos he needed to use the freaking pot to cook his food. And then he gets all aggro cause he has to wash a few more extra plates?

And mom comes home, and assumes I've been out all week playing. Meh, the only time I went out this week was today, cause I had classes and work every single f-ing day.

And to top off a wonderful night, A FUCKING COCKROACH DECIDES TO FUCKING VISITS ME IN THE ROOM.

AND THAT'S THE FUCKING CHERRY I NEEDED TO TOP OF MY REALLY AWESOME NIGHT!

I'M SO FREAKING ANGRY RIGHT NOW I WANT TO SCREEEEEAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM....................

AAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~!

Totally into the...

Bento craze now.. All because of the Food Pornographer and her bento lunches.

So I woke up to make myself 1 today for lunch. I was running a bit behind time and had to take a cab to work or I would have been late for work.

It was a really simple bento lunch, which I did not have until about 30 mins ago. Hahaha...

What can I say, plans change and I was craving for food not in my bento box. But oh well, at least I tried.

These Bento boxes are so cute though... I want some for Christmas!!!

I'm got an epic~!

I have long purple hair now!

Lol... Will post pics once the pimple on my face heals up. According to someone, it's really distracting... =P

Have a great week everyone. =)

Le sigh...

The previous post makes me sound mean, but I have to be mean to make sure I dun slip. Being mean does not become me, because I will try to be nice first, unless something changes it. In this instance, I have to be like that because frankly speaking, I'm not totally over him. It still hurts when he does things like that. Makes me soft and then I go into semi-depression mode which is bad for me. Survival of the fittest, we do what we have to do to survive in this dog eat dog world.

Sometimes, it's other mean people that make you feel as though you have to be mean to them. Like that's the only way they function.

Human behavior disgusts me sometimes. Especially when its selfish or demanding behavior. You see it everyday, be it outside when you're out shopping, when you're at work or even when you're at home. Being selfish and demanding sometimes in a way is good, but when it becomes a part of you, that's when people start seeing your ugly side.

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Example 1:
There was an uncle who was really rude and obnoxious whom I encountered on my way to work on the train this morning. He was sleeping, leaning the back of his head against the window, with his mouth wide open. It was a pretty funny sight, and made even funnier when he snorted and snored. But to the people around him, they would think that it would be just annoying and rude.

Later he woke up, and was talkign really loudly on his mobile phone. Just as he was about to get off the train, it jerked and some guy (let's just call him Mr. A) lost his balance and stepped on his feet. He gave Mr A a stare and sort-of scolded the guy, even though the Mr A was really apologetic.

My thoughts on the situation:
Him sleeping and making an embarrassment out of himself is his problem, not mine, just that he made himself look really uncultured. But when he scolded the poor guy for accidentally stepping on him, I thought that was just rude. It's not as though Mr A wanted to lose his balance and step on anyone. Him doing what he did embarrassed Mr A, and most probably spoilt the poor Mr A's day.

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Example 2:
I was at work, when this professional, pretty looking female (lets call her Ms B) walks in. She wanted to see the doctor, and proceeded to tell me she wanted to charge her medical fees under her company since it's under our contract listings. It was all good up till this point until she failed to produce her badge and if I were to follow procedure, I could have refused to let her charge it under her company.

I told her that it was compulsory for her to produce her badge for identification BUT being the nice person that I was, I said I could let it slide and that she should bring her badge the next time. Ms B got all aggro and said she could call her HR or whatever to talk to me to verify, and proceeded to tell me she was really sick and if I didn't want to let her see the doctor, then she could go to other doctor. Then she demanded her identity card back and walked off before I said anything.

My thoughts:
I was seriously pissed with her. I'm trying to be the nice person here and let it slide and she goes all aggro on me like I'm the difficult person here. What was worst was Ms B looked really professional and nice, which totally crushed my first impression of her when that happened.

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Moral of the story:
Never try to be a nice person first. If people are nice to you then you can start being nice to them.

Also, when there are no understanding between humans, there will never be any niceness in life. Just lots of misunderstandings and selfish behavior.
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The weekend is coming. I can't wait for it, so I can sleep in. Working full-time and studying part-time is starting to take a toll on me. I miss my mom, who's currently in Korea with dad right now. =(

I wanna have a holiday too....

What the hell was he thinking?

The message:
'Heyhey ivy :) hows things? Unis started yet? I'm so happy/proud of you. study hard ok.'

My thoughts:
Hmmm... Do I look like I care? Do you want me to think that you care?

Because I seriously dun. And if I do get a chance next time something like this happens again, I'm gonna say to him: 'Whatever, Trevor!'

The end.

It's time....

To walk out of the depressive mood I have been in and continue with what I am doing, feeling much more sure of everything.

I'm feeling much better after the 'alone' time I had with myself. To think and to remember. About the past, about what I am doing now, and about the future that I want.

=)

Lesson Learned

[Alicia Keys]
He broke my heart
And now it's raining just to rub it in
I'm at your door
I feel so crazy bout it

You'll say, "I told you so"
You saw it long ago
You knew he had to go

I finally came around
I'm back on solid ground
Can't let it get me down
Nah

[John Mayer]
It's alright
It's alright
It's alright

[Alicia Keys]
It's alright

[John Mayer]
It's alright

[Alicia Keys]
Yeah

[John Mayer]
It's alright

[Alicia Keys]
Yeah

[John Mayer]
It's alright


[Alicia Keys]
Yes I was burned but I called it a lesson learned
Mistake overturned so I call it a lesson learned
My soul has returned so I call it a lesson learned
Another lesson learned

Sometimes some lies can take a minute to fully realize

His tears
Your eyes
Thirty seconds to apoligize

You give him one more chance
(Yeah)
Just like the time before
(Yeah)
But he already knows you'd give a hundred more

Until that night in bed
(Yeah)
You wake up in a sweat
(Yeah)
You're racing to the door
Can't take it anymore

I was burned but I call it a lesson learned
Mistake overturned so I call it lesson learned
Whoa
Oh
Oh
My soul has returned so I call it a lesson learned
Another lesson learned

Life perfect ain't perfect if you don't know what the struggles for
Falling down ain't falling down if you don't cry when you hit the floor
It's called the past 'cause im getting past
And I ain't nothing like I was before
You oughta see me now

Yes I was burned but I call it a lesson learned
Mistake overturned so I call it lesson learned
Oh
Oh
Oh
Oh
My soul has returned so I call it a lesson learned
Another lesson learned

Whoa
Oh
Oh

Said
Yes I was burned but I called it a lesson learned

[John Mayer]
(It's alright)
(It's alright)
(It's alright)

[Alicia Keys]
Said
Mistake overturned so I call it a lesson learned

[John Mayer]
(It's alright)
(Lesson learned)

[Alicia Keys]
My soul has returned so I call it a lesson learned

[John Mayer]
(It's alright)
(It's alright)
(It's alright)

[Alicia Keys]
Oh
Lesson learned

Whoa
Oh
Oh
Oh
Oh
Lesson learned

[John Mayer]
(It's alright)
(Lesson learned)

It's alright
It's alright
It's alright

It's alright
Lesson learned

It's alright
It's alright
It's alright