Saying goodbye..

You would think that after all these times, you would just get use to it when its time to say goodbye. Is it just me, or does everyone finds it harder and harder to do just that?

I think at least its a feat this time that I can numb myself and make myself busy until its time to face reality that I'm alone here again. When its time to go to bed alone and smell him on your bed, in your mind and memories.

Its raining and gloomy here when I was on my way back. Kinda coincidental since that was how I felt. Cold, numb and alone..

Finally, its over...

I just finished the last installment of the Harry Potter series.

All I can say is, best series ever.

The whole thing was sad because through the whole series, you've come to learn and understand each and every single unique character. But it is finally over.

I'm not going to spoil it for anyone, but I love the ending.

Have a great week ahead~!

Yes yes, I'm a sucker for romantic stories..

As the titles goes, I am really one. I like knowing about how couples meet and finally get together. Everyone has that special story and its just so 'Awwwwwwww" when you hear them talk about it and the way they look! As though its just yesterday and its just so heartwarming and cute..

Just read Cherry's blog and she posted about how she and Seng met, and I was thoroughly going 'Awww, so sweet'! =)

Although she said something about LDR (Long Distance Relationship) not working, I'll like to prove that wrong. Being in Singapore, girls that I know tend to believe that LDR will never work. When I got together with Mat, even my best friend was skeptical (she still is). But I realise none of that matters if I work hard at it, and believe that Mat is doing the same thing. Being a couple is a commitment between 2 person, and everyone else does not matter as much. I mean, IT IS a relationship with your other half, not all your friends, colleagues etc.

My parents have met him, and they love him. =) Although mom still asks me not to take it so seriously, considering its a LDR, I always tell her I trust Mat that he will never do anything to hurt me. Call me naive if you want, but I really do believe in him. But then again, my parents overcame distance and my paternal grandma, and look where they are now! Still happily married after almost 25 years of marriage.

Anyways, here is our story:

Mat and I were just friends playing World of Warcraft like a year ago. He was with his then-girlfriend and I was sorta drifting in and out of a 'temporary' relationship. We were guildmates and nothing more. I guess it started when he became single and we started flirting a little. I had the hots for his voice, never mind that I have never met him. It was always different when I'm talking with him, cause we have a lot in common, yet we're different in so many ways. He always made me laugh and feel precious, whereas my then-on-off boyfriend did not.

Because I was such a social butterfly, I had lots of pictures up in guild forums cause of all the events I organized for the Singapore clan of the guild. =P So he knew how I looked but I still have no idea about him. Then he sent me some of his dancing videos and boy, was I hooked. I'm a sucker for a guy that dances (especially break-dancing). =)

So we were just hanging out in Wow, when Mat decides to come over to Singapore for a week. So I went about making plans for a gathering to meet him, even though I had to work. We met and my first thought when I saw him was: He looks so cute! Haha.. We did not spend much time because of work, but we did went out during the nights and weekend. He was funny, friendly and very unlike all the boys I've dated.

After spending that week with him, I finally said goodbye to my ex to be with Mat and I've never looked back. It might sound so cruel, but its the best decision I have made and everyone is happy. Now Mat and I have been together for almost 8 months, and he'll be coming to see me again next week. =)

We've had our ups and downs, I mean who does not. But ultimately, like I've told everyone, I will want to be in the same place as Mat when I am able to. Meanwhile, I'll just work and explore the options I have until that time comes.

I hope you enjoyed my story. Post yours if you haven't already! *hint hint*
Have a great weekend!

For Cherryblush~!

This is for you, Cherry.

How do I breathe

I'm not sure why, but my music taste has suddenly differed quite a lot. I'm now more into sappy love ballads, jazzy tunes and a little bit of pop songs. Oh dear, are these signs of aging?

Anyways, thanks to a dear playmate of mine, I got to know about this song. And it simply melts my heart. (Again, another sign that I'm aging?) Hope you people enjoy it as much as I do.

How do I breathe - Mario


Lyrics:

How do I breathe
How do I breathe

It feels so different being here
I was so used to being next to you
Life for me is not the same
There's no one to talk to
I don't know why I let it go too far
Starting over its so hard
Seems like everywhere I try to go
I keep thinking of you

I just had a wake up call
I wish I never never let you fall
Baby you were not the blame at all
Remember when I pushed you away
Baby if you knew I cared
You'd have never went no where
That I should have been right there

How do I breathe
Without you here by my side
How will I see
When your love brought me to the light
Where do I go
When your heart's where I lay my head
When you're not with me
How do I breathe
How do I breathe

Girl I'm losing my mind
Yes I made a mistake
I thought that you would be mine
Guess the joke was on me
I miss ya so bad I can't sleep
I wish I knew where you could be
Another dude is replacin' me
That this can't be happenin'

I just had a wake up call
I wish I never never let you fall
Baby you were not the blame at all
Remember when I pushed you away
Baby if you knew I cared
You'd have never went no where
That I should have been right there

How do I breathe
Without you here by my side
How will I see
When your love brought me to the light
Where do I go
When your heart's where I lay my head
When you're not with me
How do I breathe
How do I breathe

I can't get over you, no
Baby I don't wanna let go
Girl you need to come home back to me
Cause girl you made it hard to breathe
Oooh when you're not with me

How do I breathe
Without you here by my side
How will I see
When your love brought me to the light
Where do I go
When your heart's where I lay my head (Where do I where do I go)
When you're not with me (Whooaa)
How do I breathe

How do I breathe (how do I breathe)
Without you here by my side
How will I see
When your love brought me to the light
(How will I see when you leave me baby)
Where do I go
When your heart's where I lay my head (Where do I go)
When you're not with me (You're not with me)
How do I breathe (How do I breathe)
How do I breathe (yeeaaeaah)

I hate..

it when I feel like this. So vulnerable, pathetic and wallowing in self pity.

I FREAKING HATE IT.

Its OUT~!!!!

I CANT WAIT TO SEE IT~!!!!

Everytime I see the trailer, my whole body tingles non stop. Thats how excited I am. I heard they are already filming the next part before the actors/actresses in the movie becomes too old for their respective parts.

The last book is due out this month too. I'm gonna read the Half Blood Prince to refresh myself before it comes out. =)

Have a great weekend everyone~!