Family

I seriously need to get it off my chest..

You either like or dislike them.

For me, most times, it's dislike.

I can't help but feel my mom hates me. Like I'm not hers.

Like because I am a girl, I am useless and therefore less important compared to my brother.

She doesn't encourage me, doesn't give me support. Always putting me down, and making me feel like crap. And when she's in a bad mood, I'm conveniently the one she vents it on.

When I help out at home, she takes it for granted. When I do nothing, she screams at me and says she's not the maid. She's constantly trying to get rid of me from the house because I mess it up, according to her.

I am the only person who helps her out at home. I help to wash the dishes whenever there are some in the sink. I help to vacuum and mop the floor once in a while. I help her when she's cooking. I help cook for the family when she's at work. I am the other person who does more work around the house than the rest of the family.

And I get shit constantly everyday.

Sometimes, I just wanna run away from this house as soon as possible. See if she needs me then, when there's no one around to help her.

GRRRR...

Rant over...

I still feel quite sad though.

I will never ever be like that to my children. I will treat them equally whether they be boy or girl. And I will always be close to them, and say I love them all the time..

Elated!!!

So.... Remember the side project I've been hinting about? I didn't really wanted to tell anyone cause I didn't wanna be super disappointed when I do not get into it. I just got a reply back and....

I am going back to school!

I've enrolled in the Diploma in Pastry and Bakery Arts! So happy!

I will start classes next year, and I can't can't wait!

The School I've enrolled in is pretty reputable in Singapore, with their graduates working in hotel kitchens all over Singapore. And Singapore do have great hotels..

So anyways, it's a good thing the course will be heavily subsidised by the Government, or I would have to shell out 23k for a 17 months course. Not sure how much subsidy though, but more than half, that I am sure of.

After almost a month of waiting, I can relax and wait for school to start now. =)

Finally I can pursue my dreams! Hopefully eventually, I can open my own cafe! Heehee.. But first, I need to get that Diploma!

Hope you guys have a great remaining week. I know mine just became better.. =P

Sometimes...

You know how it is, when you get into a relationship.. People stop calling to ask you out because 9/10 times the answer would be no.

Sigh, I dunno if it's possible but sometimes the longer we are together, the further we seem to be drifting away. We fight over little things and we dun do much stuffs together anymore.

Is it how it's supposed to be like? Or do we need to both work hard at it to prevent something like this from happening?

Oh noes.. I have been sucked in~!

So, out of curiosity, I decided to watch Twilight: New Moon. Gosh, worst idea ever..

Because now, I've been sucked into it..

Sigh, can you imagine being Bella? With 2 hunk-i-licious guys fighting for you. I would totally go for Edward, because I would so love to be a vampire, even though Robert Pattinson is not my idea of how Edward should be.

But Taylor Lautner is super super hot too... His body.. *drools*

Haha...

This is gonna be random but while trying to download Twilight: Eclipse, I found a porn movie titled This isn't the Twilight Saga.. Lol..

I think if they made vampire porn, it would be so totally awesome for me... Hahaha..

Just a thought.. =P

Anyways, have a great weekend guys.. =P

Bad Kitchen Day

Sigh, I'm having a bad kitchen day today.. =(

I made muffins, and they turn out awful..

I accidentally dipped my finger into hot oil.. And I touched the hot tray while testing whether the muffins are done.

I feel like crap....

What's happening!?!?!?!?

Maybe I'm just tired...

Nothing really...

Just thought I'd do some blogging..

I was gonna make use of the overripe bananas I had to bake some banana muffins tonight.

Little did I know, after preparing the ingredients needed for the muffins, that my main ingredient would be so super ripe that the insides are black and soggy while they are still in the skins itself. What the hell is that...

Oh well, better luck with the next batch of overripe bananas...

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Also, I saw pictures of an ex. And he looks.... Hmmm.... What's the word... I dunno.. Mixed feelings seeing his pictures, considering I have nothing left of him at all.. Either all thrown away, or sent back to him.

Anyways, the only feeling I have is the happiness I got from the sweet revenge I got from him. All not my doing btw, but brought on by his own silly self and karma.

=)

Life is good. Haha.. Have a good week people!

Blind

It's so true that Love makes people blind.

It's quite hard when you read about people going through breakups or finding out what they had was all a lie. It's hard because I've gone through it all, and I can still remember the feeling of being so low, and feeling like you are gonna just die of heartbreak. Good thing to know that I have a good support base who helped me through it all. Starting from learning how to pick myself up and regaining control of my life. That effort totally made it worthwhile, especially when I finally got my revenge back. Haha, that will be a story for another time.

Was reading Mooiness' post and I agree with him. Sometimes, it's better to have not loved because then when it's all over, the fall will not be as bad. But then, if you have not taken the leap and loved someone else back, would you have missed out on anything?

Falling in love and entrusting your heart and soul to someone else takes courage. I will do it all over again if I ever had a chance to go back, because I think of it as a learning experience and I would have done a few things differently.

Been listening to Jason Derulo's album and this song is stuck in my head. Which is why I did a post surrounding this song. Hope you like it.

Blind - Jason Derulo

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On another note, since I've been bitten by the baking bug, I might do more baking this coming week. Will post pictures of finished products if I remember..

Have a good week everyone. I'm gonna go to bed now, feeling super tired and sore because Clumsy Me had a great fall again this afternoon. Gonna have a huge ass bruise on the arm!

Incidentally, it's the hungry ghost festival this month too... Be wery wery careful ok, guys!

Starcraft!

No, I did not buy it. I went to a lan shop and played it. It was fun, but I totally suck at it.. My hands move too slowly, and while everyone has started their attacks and finishing the game, I'm still happily building my base away in my little heaven. Haha..

But seriously, the graphics are so cool and nice. Nice game, but too expensive to buy it and play at home. Also, I refuse to be addicted to another game. Haha..

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Been busy past 2 weeks, baking chicken pies! I finally bought a pastry cutter and having fun making homemade pies from scratch. So far, my pies has been successful. Next up, making puff pastry!

My days have been pretty busy past few weeks. I've been making progress on a little assignment I've been doing. Hope everything goes well, and I can finally complete the little assignment.

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Also, I need to start losing weight too. I have gained 5 kilos in 1 year. I constantly feel fat, and all my clothes are starting to not fit. Sigh. I just went for a slow jog, and I feel like a jellyfish now.

Oh well, PERSEVERE~!

That's all from me I guess. Have a happy week!

P.S. I realize how fun Starcraft can be, but guys... Update your blogs please.. =P

That is all.. Haha..

Big Bang Theory!

Lol, it's 1.44am now, and I'm still awake baking chicken pies for my buddy, Debs and my BF..

Haha, good thing I can sleep in tomorrow.. So anyways, I've been hooked onto Big Bang Theory.. It's so freaking hilarious! Haha... Plus, those guys play WoW! Funny stuff..

Sheldon is my favourite! He looks super super cute and has zero social skills, which makes it super endearing to me.. Haha..

With a face like that, how can you not like him.. Haha..

Have a great week everyone!