Talk talk and more talk...

It's nice to talk to people and get their opinions. 1 situation can be seen and interpreted in many many ways..

Like for example, to 1 friend, I'm attention seeking.. I do agree, to a certain extent only.. I am trying to attract certain person's attention. Another friend said that it could be mistaken for attention seeking-ness and goes on to tell me what's so bad about it..

Oh well, I guess I should stop being that because it's not working.. But it's alright.. =)

As much as things have been bugging me, I've decided to just be cool about things... Now I have to work towards finishing this last term of my studies, before I can start applying for Uni.. Then I can start planning for the future once I've gotten a spot in the desired uni..

I need to start being more optimistic. I need to be more active, socially and physically. Exercise makes me happy and helps me lose the fats I've accumulated. Being lazy makes me sad and when I'm sad, I eat..

I need to start taking care of myself. =) Been popping supplements like they're candy, hoping it will help with the mood swings, overall well-being and helping my metabolism work normally. I think I have to love myself first before I can start loving anyone..

Will be playing less WoW I think, cos it makes me feel lazy and emo... Dunno why but it does... I wanna start taking up swimming.. So many things to do, so little time..

I think I'm rambling... Training was pretty tough.. I can already feel the strain and I can say very proudly, I did not slack today!!! Did everything and I'm happy.. Maybe when I finally get to my ideal weight of 48kg, I will feel more confident about myself.. That's a total of 4 kgs and I will go back to being underweight, but I think I will be happy...

Hmmm... Anyways, I;d better stop now.. Not sure what I'm writing.. Hahaha... Good night everyone.. Have an awesome week..

I can't...

think straight now.. My head hurts... But not as much as my heart hurts... Seriously, I should stop all these things... It's only making my life more complicated than it should..

My existence should be fairly simple, make friends, study, get a good job and that's it... So why then do I have all these complicated feelings going through me?

Sigh.. I think I'm babbling..

I'm feeling scared actually... Of change.. I know change is good sometimes... But it's change in people that scares me.. Change in the situations that scare me...

Because these are things you cannot control, which makes you vulnerable when it happens, and you can't do shit about it.

Like friends for example... You think you know them, and then situations change and suddenly, you feel like you dunno them anymore.. That's how I lost a few friends... Also with relationships, you give your all into it.. Listen to him, give up everything you love for him.. Then situation changes, and he decides he doesn't want you anymore, and you're left alone again...

I hate feeling lonely.. But I feel alone so much... Even when I'm with friends, and I try to blend in, be happy and cheerful... Sometimes, you feel like you dun belong...

Sigh... I'm so so tired.. Can I just go into a dreamless slumber and never awake from it...?

Lol...

I just majorly pissed my dear dear brother off.. By accidentally deleting 50gb worth of animes he downloaded.. HAHAHA...

Oh well, it was accidental, and it can be downloaded again... So wat's the big deal for him to go all emo?

Boys will always be boys..

And in my defense, I was just doing wat he told me to after using the external hard drive.. He gave me a lecture on always deleting all the files I put on after using it, and it was only 1 folder which I left in there.. So after that, I always cleaned everything out..

How was I to know that he transferred his animes into the thing... I used it and then cleaned it out.. Just wat he told me to.. Not my fault I was clueless about it... Granted I should have been more careful but it was 1 something in the morning dammit!

Oh well, seems like I have to avoid him on the weekends then... Lol.. Which means no WoW for me unless I wanna use tat crappy PC which will drive me insane!

Lol.. Have a great weekend everyone!

I feel...

happy... Tired but happy... =) I dunno why but I;ve been laughing and smiling a lot today.. Maybe because I've been hanging out with frineds today... I love all my friends... Heehee..

Was bored at work before and did something I seldom would do.. I took pictures of myself.. The big eyes, close up type self portrait.. Never knew my eyes are so big.. Fully loved the colour of my eyes tho.. =P

Because this is my blog, I'm gonna post one up because I can and because I think I am cute!! And also because I love myself! Haha.. Enjoy the rest of the week~!


XOXO from Foxyspirit!

Hmmm...

I feel really complicated now.. I dunno why, but I just do..

Feeling kinda sick now, mostly due to lack of rest.. So I'll probably just blog tomorrow...

Also, I'm broke.. =(

Need to start to save and plan for the trip end of the year.. There's so many things I wanna do, people I wanna hang out with... Rawr!

Anyways, gonna go off now... I'm looking forward to the weekends so I can have more of these....


Have a great week ahead everyone~!

The Craft of War: Blind

This guy made a really awesome video, and I really love the song by Namie Amuro.. That blood elf rogue looks so hawt..



Hope you like it.. =)

Unbeautiful...

If anyone were to tell me 2 months ago that things would turn out this way, I would never have believed them.

2 months ago, I was happy. I was contentedly satisfied with my life and had someone special. I made new friends and found a few good ones I could rely on among them. I was having fun in class, with my 2 best classmates.

But now, I'm alone and that someone special back then is now no more than a polite hi-bye friend who knows a lot about me and my deepest darkest secrets. I still have those good friends who are still as reliant as ever, and found a few more new ones. 1 of the classmates is starting to annoy me, because I feel like she's constantly picking on me.

What a huge difference someone's life can go through in such a short time.

Sometimes, I wonder why do people try so hard when things are gonna just turn out bad? Hope? Or just for the sake of trying? Sometimes you just reach a point whereby you ask yourself, why bother?

People drift apart, people change and circumstances change. Change is constantly going to happen and nobody can stop it.

I feel like giving up sometimes.. Feel so tired trying and trying when I know it's gonna fail.. Sigh...

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Went out with my cousins today. I'm kinda worried about them and the environment they are in right now. I'm hoping to help them as much as I can. Another reason as to why I'm spending more time with them is maybe because I'm lonely and I feel like I need some companionship. I could probably look for my 2 best friends but 1 is busy rushing her assignments, and the other is having some difficulties in his life right now. So I'd rather not bother them..

These 2 girls are also kinda like the sisters I never got to have. I also hope that they would come to me when they have a problem to discuss before doing anything silly.

Anyways, back to the story, I brought them out for dinner, then shopping after. It was just a nice time to hang out with them and just listen to them talk, bicker and give them comments/advices about certain things. Took some pics today throughout..

Gonna let the pics speak for themselves..


The pot of yummies


Seraphina, making a face


Tabatha, being a waitress.. =P

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After shopping, went to N.Y.D.C for desserts


The Kiddies


=)


Me trying to take a self-pic of all of us...


A proper pic taken by the waiter.. =P


Cookie Monster Mudpie


I like this shot of them.. Hungry hungry hippos!


My apple crumble with vanilla ice-cream and whipped cream.. Satisfied the craving I had for them finally! It was heavenly...

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On our way home, we mucked a bit more...


I like this, too bad it's blurred cause of the zooming.. -.-"

After a few tries...




Finally a nice one!

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Purchases for the week.. =)

All bought today.. =)



Bought over the weekend.. =) Needed it as my main source of entertainment.. Can't get myself to actually update it with songs though.. So it's staying in the box until I find time to do all that's needed...

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Last random pic of the day...


=)

Have a good week..