You would think that after all these times, you would just get use to it when its time to say goodbye. Is it just me, or does everyone finds it harder and harder to do just that?
I think at least its a feat this time that I can numb myself and make myself busy until its time to face reality that I'm alone here again. When its time to go to bed alone and smell him on your bed, in your mind and memories.
Its raining and gloomy here when I was on my way back. Kinda coincidental since that was how I felt. Cold, numb and alone..
Monday 30 July 2007
Sunday 22 July 2007
Finally, its over...
I just finished the last installment of the Harry Potter series.
All I can say is, best series ever.
The whole thing was sad because through the whole series, you've come to learn and understand each and every single unique character. But it is finally over.
I'm not going to spoil it for anyone, but I love the ending.
Have a great week ahead~!
All I can say is, best series ever.
The whole thing was sad because through the whole series, you've come to learn and understand each and every single unique character. But it is finally over.
I'm not going to spoil it for anyone, but I love the ending.
Have a great week ahead~!
Thursday 19 July 2007
Yes yes, I'm a sucker for romantic stories..
As the titles goes, I am really one. I like knowing about how couples meet and finally get together. Everyone has that special story and its just so 'Awwwwwwww" when you hear them talk about it and the way they look! As though its just yesterday and its just so heartwarming and cute..
Just read Cherry's blog and she posted about how she and Seng met, and I was thoroughly going 'Awww, so sweet'! =)
Although she said something about LDR (Long Distance Relationship) not working, I'll like to prove that wrong. Being in Singapore, girls that I know tend to believe that LDR will never work. When I got together with Mat, even my best friend was skeptical (she still is). But I realise none of that matters if I work hard at it, and believe that Mat is doing the same thing. Being a couple is a commitment between 2 person, and everyone else does not matter as much. I mean, IT IS a relationship with your other half, not all your friends, colleagues etc.
My parents have met him, and they love him. =) Although mom still asks me not to take it so seriously, considering its a LDR, I always tell her I trust Mat that he will never do anything to hurt me. Call me naive if you want, but I really do believe in him. But then again, my parents overcame distance and my paternal grandma, and look where they are now! Still happily married after almost 25 years of marriage.
Anyways, here is our story:
Mat and I were just friends playing World of Warcraft like a year ago. He was with his then-girlfriend and I was sorta drifting in and out of a 'temporary' relationship. We were guildmates and nothing more. I guess it started when he became single and we started flirting a little. I had the hots for his voice, never mind that I have never met him. It was always different when I'm talking with him, cause we have a lot in common, yet we're different in so many ways. He always made me laugh and feel precious, whereas my then-on-off boyfriend did not.
Because I was such a social butterfly, I had lots of pictures up in guild forums cause of all the events I organized for the Singapore clan of the guild. =P So he knew how I looked but I still have no idea about him. Then he sent me some of his dancing videos and boy, was I hooked. I'm a sucker for a guy that dances (especially break-dancing). =)
So we were just hanging out in Wow, when Mat decides to come over to Singapore for a week. So I went about making plans for a gathering to meet him, even though I had to work. We met and my first thought when I saw him was: He looks so cute! Haha.. We did not spend much time because of work, but we did went out during the nights and weekend. He was funny, friendly and very unlike all the boys I've dated.
After spending that week with him, I finally said goodbye to my ex to be with Mat and I've never looked back. It might sound so cruel, but its the best decision I have made and everyone is happy. Now Mat and I have been together for almost 8 months, and he'll be coming to see me again next week. =)
We've had our ups and downs, I mean who does not. But ultimately, like I've told everyone, I will want to be in the same place as Mat when I am able to. Meanwhile, I'll just work and explore the options I have until that time comes.
I hope you enjoyed my story. Post yours if you haven't already! *hint hint*
Have a great weekend!
Just read Cherry's blog and she posted about how she and Seng met, and I was thoroughly going 'Awww, so sweet'! =)
Although she said something about LDR (Long Distance Relationship) not working, I'll like to prove that wrong. Being in Singapore, girls that I know tend to believe that LDR will never work. When I got together with Mat, even my best friend was skeptical (she still is). But I realise none of that matters if I work hard at it, and believe that Mat is doing the same thing. Being a couple is a commitment between 2 person, and everyone else does not matter as much. I mean, IT IS a relationship with your other half, not all your friends, colleagues etc.
My parents have met him, and they love him. =) Although mom still asks me not to take it so seriously, considering its a LDR, I always tell her I trust Mat that he will never do anything to hurt me. Call me naive if you want, but I really do believe in him. But then again, my parents overcame distance and my paternal grandma, and look where they are now! Still happily married after almost 25 years of marriage.
Anyways, here is our story:
Mat and I were just friends playing World of Warcraft like a year ago. He was with his then-girlfriend and I was sorta drifting in and out of a 'temporary' relationship. We were guildmates and nothing more. I guess it started when he became single and we started flirting a little. I had the hots for his voice, never mind that I have never met him. It was always different when I'm talking with him, cause we have a lot in common, yet we're different in so many ways. He always made me laugh and feel precious, whereas my then-on-off boyfriend did not.
Because I was such a social butterfly, I had lots of pictures up in guild forums cause of all the events I organized for the Singapore clan of the guild. =P So he knew how I looked but I still have no idea about him. Then he sent me some of his dancing videos and boy, was I hooked. I'm a sucker for a guy that dances (especially break-dancing). =)
So we were just hanging out in Wow, when Mat decides to come over to Singapore for a week. So I went about making plans for a gathering to meet him, even though I had to work. We met and my first thought when I saw him was: He looks so cute! Haha.. We did not spend much time because of work, but we did went out during the nights and weekend. He was funny, friendly and very unlike all the boys I've dated.
After spending that week with him, I finally said goodbye to my ex to be with Mat and I've never looked back. It might sound so cruel, but its the best decision I have made and everyone is happy. Now Mat and I have been together for almost 8 months, and he'll be coming to see me again next week. =)
We've had our ups and downs, I mean who does not. But ultimately, like I've told everyone, I will want to be in the same place as Mat when I am able to. Meanwhile, I'll just work and explore the options I have until that time comes.
I hope you enjoyed my story. Post yours if you haven't already! *hint hint*
Have a great weekend!
Wednesday 18 July 2007
Sunday 15 July 2007
How do I breathe
I'm not sure why, but my music taste has suddenly differed quite a lot. I'm now more into sappy love ballads, jazzy tunes and a little bit of pop songs. Oh dear, are these signs of aging?
Anyways, thanks to a dear playmate of mine, I got to know about this song. And it simply melts my heart. (Again, another sign that I'm aging?) Hope you people enjoy it as much as I do.
How do I breathe - Mario
Lyrics:
How do I breathe
How do I breathe
It feels so different being here
I was so used to being next to you
Life for me is not the same
There's no one to talk to
I don't know why I let it go too far
Starting over its so hard
Seems like everywhere I try to go
I keep thinking of you
I just had a wake up call
I wish I never never let you fall
Baby you were not the blame at all
Remember when I pushed you away
Baby if you knew I cared
You'd have never went no where
That I should have been right there
How do I breathe
Without you here by my side
How will I see
When your love brought me to the light
Where do I go
When your heart's where I lay my head
When you're not with me
How do I breathe
How do I breathe
Girl I'm losing my mind
Yes I made a mistake
I thought that you would be mine
Guess the joke was on me
I miss ya so bad I can't sleep
I wish I knew where you could be
Another dude is replacin' me
That this can't be happenin'
I just had a wake up call
I wish I never never let you fall
Baby you were not the blame at all
Remember when I pushed you away
Baby if you knew I cared
You'd have never went no where
That I should have been right there
How do I breathe
Without you here by my side
How will I see
When your love brought me to the light
Where do I go
When your heart's where I lay my head
When you're not with me
How do I breathe
How do I breathe
I can't get over you, no
Baby I don't wanna let go
Girl you need to come home back to me
Cause girl you made it hard to breathe
Oooh when you're not with me
How do I breathe
Without you here by my side
How will I see
When your love brought me to the light
Where do I go
When your heart's where I lay my head (Where do I where do I go)
When you're not with me (Whooaa)
How do I breathe
How do I breathe (how do I breathe)
Without you here by my side
How will I see
When your love brought me to the light
(How will I see when you leave me baby)
Where do I go
When your heart's where I lay my head (Where do I go)
When you're not with me (You're not with me)
How do I breathe (How do I breathe)
How do I breathe (yeeaaeaah)
Anyways, thanks to a dear playmate of mine, I got to know about this song. And it simply melts my heart. (Again, another sign that I'm aging?) Hope you people enjoy it as much as I do.
How do I breathe - Mario
Lyrics:
How do I breathe
How do I breathe
It feels so different being here
I was so used to being next to you
Life for me is not the same
There's no one to talk to
I don't know why I let it go too far
Starting over its so hard
Seems like everywhere I try to go
I keep thinking of you
I just had a wake up call
I wish I never never let you fall
Baby you were not the blame at all
Remember when I pushed you away
Baby if you knew I cared
You'd have never went no where
That I should have been right there
How do I breathe
Without you here by my side
How will I see
When your love brought me to the light
Where do I go
When your heart's where I lay my head
When you're not with me
How do I breathe
How do I breathe
Girl I'm losing my mind
Yes I made a mistake
I thought that you would be mine
Guess the joke was on me
I miss ya so bad I can't sleep
I wish I knew where you could be
Another dude is replacin' me
That this can't be happenin'
I just had a wake up call
I wish I never never let you fall
Baby you were not the blame at all
Remember when I pushed you away
Baby if you knew I cared
You'd have never went no where
That I should have been right there
How do I breathe
Without you here by my side
How will I see
When your love brought me to the light
Where do I go
When your heart's where I lay my head
When you're not with me
How do I breathe
How do I breathe
I can't get over you, no
Baby I don't wanna let go
Girl you need to come home back to me
Cause girl you made it hard to breathe
Oooh when you're not with me
How do I breathe
Without you here by my side
How will I see
When your love brought me to the light
Where do I go
When your heart's where I lay my head (Where do I where do I go)
When you're not with me (Whooaa)
How do I breathe
How do I breathe (how do I breathe)
Without you here by my side
How will I see
When your love brought me to the light
(How will I see when you leave me baby)
Where do I go
When your heart's where I lay my head (Where do I go)
When you're not with me (You're not with me)
How do I breathe (How do I breathe)
How do I breathe (yeeaaeaah)
Saturday 14 July 2007
I hate..
it when I feel like this. So vulnerable, pathetic and wallowing in self pity.
I FREAKING HATE IT.
I FREAKING HATE IT.
Friday 13 July 2007
Its OUT~!!!!
I CANT WAIT TO SEE IT~!!!!
Everytime I see the trailer, my whole body tingles non stop. Thats how excited I am. I heard they are already filming the next part before the actors/actresses in the movie becomes too old for their respective parts.
The last book is due out this month too. I'm gonna read the Half Blood Prince to refresh myself before it comes out. =)
Have a great weekend everyone~!
Sunday 8 July 2007
Catch-up
I went out last night to Holland Village to meet a friend I haven't seen in years. Its so strange how Singapore is so small, but yet people don't take the time to catch up as often as they should.
Huiyi is a very dear childhood friend of mine. We used to hang out and play everyday after school, because she happened to live directly above my mom's old workplace. And needless to say, we're always at her house watching tv, playing girly make-believe games and just having fun.
After I switched schools when I turned 10, I never really saw her again. We became involved in our own lives, new friends and just drifted apart. But we did meet once. 4 years ago, for lunch in town. I was surprised she actually contacted me to ask me out, and I thought why not. She was still the same as i remembered her then, only a bit more mature in thinking. But thats wat happens when people grow up.
So yesterday, we met up for coffee. Or rather, we had tea in a coffee place. It was a nice place, Essential Brew. Affordable prices, relaxed ambience and friendly staff were there to help this catch-up session progress smoothly. I was actually having 2nd thoughts about going because I was scared. Questions were going through my mind: What are we gonna talk about? What if it became awkward? What if we're both so different, we have nothing in common anymore?
But meeting her last night, was the best decision I have made in a while. It was as though the years never mattered. We still have loads to talk about, especially our school days. We talked about whats happening in our own lives, our goals for now and our own schoolmates' and whats happening with them. All in all a very good time.
I'm going over to her place laters to meet her mom, say hi since its a very long while. Then she's coming down to my mom's old workplace to meet the 'Jie jie' we like to tease when we were younger and also to see my mom. =) I think we'll make more time to meet up now..
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Tomorrow is Dad's birthday. I got a cake for him, and we're gonna celebrate with him today. =) I hope he enjoys today, considering his pet fish died like 2 days ago. He was sad, and I felt sad for him cause I know how it feels when a pet dies. Anyways, tats all for today. I'm going to get ready to go out.. =)
Have a great week ahead.
Huiyi is a very dear childhood friend of mine. We used to hang out and play everyday after school, because she happened to live directly above my mom's old workplace. And needless to say, we're always at her house watching tv, playing girly make-believe games and just having fun.
After I switched schools when I turned 10, I never really saw her again. We became involved in our own lives, new friends and just drifted apart. But we did meet once. 4 years ago, for lunch in town. I was surprised she actually contacted me to ask me out, and I thought why not. She was still the same as i remembered her then, only a bit more mature in thinking. But thats wat happens when people grow up.
So yesterday, we met up for coffee. Or rather, we had tea in a coffee place. It was a nice place, Essential Brew. Affordable prices, relaxed ambience and friendly staff were there to help this catch-up session progress smoothly. I was actually having 2nd thoughts about going because I was scared. Questions were going through my mind: What are we gonna talk about? What if it became awkward? What if we're both so different, we have nothing in common anymore?
But meeting her last night, was the best decision I have made in a while. It was as though the years never mattered. We still have loads to talk about, especially our school days. We talked about whats happening in our own lives, our goals for now and our own schoolmates' and whats happening with them. All in all a very good time.
I'm going over to her place laters to meet her mom, say hi since its a very long while. Then she's coming down to my mom's old workplace to meet the 'Jie jie' we like to tease when we were younger and also to see my mom. =) I think we'll make more time to meet up now..
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Tomorrow is Dad's birthday. I got a cake for him, and we're gonna celebrate with him today. =) I hope he enjoys today, considering his pet fish died like 2 days ago. He was sad, and I felt sad for him cause I know how it feels when a pet dies. Anyways, tats all for today. I'm going to get ready to go out.. =)
Have a great week ahead.
Wednesday 4 July 2007
Silly post
Good evening everyone. =)
Just came home from work, feeling tired and very hot now. Blame the crazy Singapore weather we have here. Yesterday was pretty nice and cool. Today was crazy hot and a lil humid. I wonder how its going to be tomorrow?
Anyways, I'm quite happy cos I bought something for myself today. =) Its a portable Mp3 speaker/charger electronic thingy. And its metallic pink~! Lol.. I'm not a very big fan of pink on me, but other stuffs, as long as its cute overall, is a-ok by me. Its actually pretty redundant, but I love spending money, so it's going to be used or kept until I get my room back. =) Then it will be able to shine.
Debs is now in USA right now, on a holiday with her parents. Lucky girl! I'm loving the silly pictures she's putting up, of signposts and bus-stops. What can I say, my Debs is a weird girl. =P Hope she have loads of fun and she'd better bring me something back from USA~!
Seeing her have her holiday, makes me wanna travel too. Did I mention SIA is holding interviews for cabin crew positions on the 16th July? I'm thinking of going for a try, so at least I can say I tried. It would mean going back to campus to collect my Diploma. Sigh, I hate my old campus, cos strangely, I never really quite fit in. Oh wells, what has to be done, must be done. Will go back maybe next week. =)
I'm gonna try to bake bread this weekend. =) Old fashioned baked in the oven bread. I would prefer at least going for a short basic course but cant seem to find any. So its DIY for me, wish me luck ok. I'm not gonna stop until I bake the 'perfect' bread!
I think thats it for me, my eyes are about to pop out. O_O Will be back soon with results and everyone have a great week ahead alright.
Just came home from work, feeling tired and very hot now. Blame the crazy Singapore weather we have here. Yesterday was pretty nice and cool. Today was crazy hot and a lil humid. I wonder how its going to be tomorrow?
Anyways, I'm quite happy cos I bought something for myself today. =) Its a portable Mp3 speaker/charger electronic thingy. And its metallic pink~! Lol.. I'm not a very big fan of pink on me, but other stuffs, as long as its cute overall, is a-ok by me. Its actually pretty redundant, but I love spending money, so it's going to be used or kept until I get my room back. =) Then it will be able to shine.
Debs is now in USA right now, on a holiday with her parents. Lucky girl! I'm loving the silly pictures she's putting up, of signposts and bus-stops. What can I say, my Debs is a weird girl. =P Hope she have loads of fun and she'd better bring me something back from USA~!
Seeing her have her holiday, makes me wanna travel too. Did I mention SIA is holding interviews for cabin crew positions on the 16th July? I'm thinking of going for a try, so at least I can say I tried. It would mean going back to campus to collect my Diploma. Sigh, I hate my old campus, cos strangely, I never really quite fit in. Oh wells, what has to be done, must be done. Will go back maybe next week. =)
I'm gonna try to bake bread this weekend. =) Old fashioned baked in the oven bread. I would prefer at least going for a short basic course but cant seem to find any. So its DIY for me, wish me luck ok. I'm not gonna stop until I bake the 'perfect' bread!
I think thats it for me, my eyes are about to pop out. O_O Will be back soon with results and everyone have a great week ahead alright.
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