An update....

I have been remiss in updating about what's happening.

School is pretty fun and interesting. I'm liking what I'm doing now. Love the subjects (cept for Physics and Maths), the lecturers are pretty good and the class is awesome! We have the joker, the smart people and the outcast. =)

Life-wise, I'm getting on pretty well. Learning to appreciate myself, my friends and my family more.

I'm heading towards my ultimate goal of working in Australia, baby steps at a time but I'm going strong. I'm learning that one can be strong when they have the will to be.

Found out someone has already started dating. Funny thing is, it doesn't hurt as much as I thought it would.

Life goes on. No point thinking about what ifs and nots.

A friend asked me recently what are my expectations for the next relationship I go into. After a week of thoughts, I think I know my answer now. The most important thing I want is for him to treat me like I'm his everything. He must be able to make me trust him whole-heartedly. Someone like my dad, who treats my mom like she's the apple of his eyes. =P

Sounds cheesy but they've been married 20 odd years. I guess that worked out for them, and they're still very much in love and going strong. I want exactly the same thing like what they have. But I'm not gonna look for it.

When the time comes, it comes.

Meanwhile, live for the moment because life is unpredictable. The most important thing is to be happy. =)

Have a great week everyone.

Stress....

I have my anatomy test tonight...

Haven't done any studying for some time now, and my classmates are all putting the pressure on.. LoL...

But it's fun, and I'm pretty confident about it. =)

Will blog again to tell you how it goes...

On my mind...

I was at home the whole day today. Doing nothing but chilling out, catching up on sleep and watching animes.

Was supposed to go out for lunch with a friend and maybe movie later, but I sorta chickened out. Maybe it's the fact that it's just me and him, and we're just newly acquainted. And the way he asked me made it sound a little like he was asking me out on a date. At first we sorta just agreed to have lunch, then he added the movie part, I was kinda hesitant and said we'll see how. Then before I went to bed last night, I chickened out. He's a really nice guy, and just recently got out of a relationship too. So since I'm not ready for anything yet, better not to lead him on.

I'm trying to become a better person now, not like how I was when I was younger.

My emotions have been going a little haywire past week. Maybe it's the stress, but I find myself thinking about my past relationships and my ex-es. The 2 I loved the most. Gets a bit lonely sometimes when you're alone and even if you have frens and all, you still feel like you're alone sometimes.

I am trying to attain what Mooiness has attained. He calls it his single man's mantra. It's so true though, cause even if you're in a relationship, you do have to still complete yourself cause your other half might not always be there to complete. Sometimes, they might get tired of trying to complete you, which might be what happened to me and Mr Mat. But that is a story for another time.

So yea, the song playing is sorta what's been on my mind lately. Also kinda tells you what kind of music I'm listening to lately too. Have been spending some of my waking time reflecting on my life, past relationships, and things that has been happening right now.

It's good to have friends, and also to keep up some of the acquaintances I've made. I like being with people who appreciate you for being who you are. But then again, humans are a bunch of interesting species. We are all the same, yet so different. Oh well, I'm rambling now.

But bottom line is, I'm happy. Happier than I thought I would ever be.

Anyways, hope everyone have a great week. =) Miss you all so much. Can't wait till next year, when I go down to Australia.

Take care of your health, peace~!

I'm gonna miss him...

The family sent him off for enlistment. We will not be able to see him for the next 2 weeks. I hope he does alright. =)

Somehow, the house feels empty without his usually-irritating presence. =P

I hope he still retains that silliness he has when he comes back.



P.S. I love that shirt he has on. Everytime I see it, it reminds me of Davo.. =P

Taking a walk...

I did something today. Before I picked up the phone to dial Mr J's number, I hesitated.

Once.

Twice.

And the third time, I finally pressed dial.

Hearing his voice when he finally picked up the phone just sent a rush of memories through my head. Good and bad.

Sigh. This just proves my theory. People who used to be together can never ever truly become 'normal' friends again.

After all that they went through, things that they've said to each other and promises they gave each other. Even after almost 2 years, it's still weird and awkward.

Things can never go back the way they were before the relationship, before when they were just 'friends'.

The morning after...

I haven't lost my temper and go crazy for a while now. Feels kinda good to get it outta my system. But things are all better now..

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Anyways, went out to a games cafe last night with some friends and I had a good time. Just some friends going crazy playing games, good conversation, non-alcoholic drinks and no loud music, just us making lots of noise. Very different from the usual nightlife entertainment I am used to, and much more fulfilling too, I must admit.

Some pictures from the night. =)

I'm soooooooooooooooooooooo.....

FREAKING ANGRY RIGHT NOW!!

Everyone assumes I should be doing all the things at home. Does my work and school means nothing?

So now that everything is in a mess, its my fault? I tried ok, not like the person who's at home all day in his room doing nothing. I cook for him and he leaves it there for me to clean up. The only reason why he did clean up was cos he needed to use the freaking pot to cook his food. And then he gets all aggro cause he has to wash a few more extra plates?

And mom comes home, and assumes I've been out all week playing. Meh, the only time I went out this week was today, cause I had classes and work every single f-ing day.

And to top off a wonderful night, A FUCKING COCKROACH DECIDES TO FUCKING VISITS ME IN THE ROOM.

AND THAT'S THE FUCKING CHERRY I NEEDED TO TOP OF MY REALLY AWESOME NIGHT!

I'M SO FREAKING ANGRY RIGHT NOW I WANT TO SCREEEEEAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM....................

AAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~!

Totally into the...

Bento craze now.. All because of the Food Pornographer and her bento lunches.

So I woke up to make myself 1 today for lunch. I was running a bit behind time and had to take a cab to work or I would have been late for work.

It was a really simple bento lunch, which I did not have until about 30 mins ago. Hahaha...

What can I say, plans change and I was craving for food not in my bento box. But oh well, at least I tried.

These Bento boxes are so cute though... I want some for Christmas!!!

I'm got an epic~!

I have long purple hair now!

Lol... Will post pics once the pimple on my face heals up. According to someone, it's really distracting... =P

Have a great week everyone. =)