Tis the season to be..

Jolly~! Fah lalala la.. Fah lalala...

=) Sorry I haven't been updating, just so lazy to write about stuffs that I've been telling people about.

So my 1 week of term break from school is over and I'm back with 2 new subjects, Genetics and Physiology. So far so good, but the class schedule is kinda fucked up. But it's a good thing we have very nice and flexible teachers who are able to accomodate us working people and change the assignment datelines around a little.

Been out quite a bit, hanging and catching up with friends. I'm also very content with my life now, mainly because I have a special someone who is the light of my life, and also because my chapter with Mat is finally closed. Much as I want to feel happy because he is having such a hard time, I really can't. I'm totally over the fact that he'd rather choose some girl who treats him like shit, over me.

It's a good thing he did that though. Cause I'm much more certain about my life and just loving every day as it comes. I've made a lot more new friends, grown much more confident and started to re-aquaint with all my old ones. I am proud to say, I have fulfilled 3 outta 5 of my half year resolutions. =)
And these 3 are: (from this post)
2. Study hard and be one of the top 3 students in my foundation class.
3. Reconnect with old friends and make lots of new ones.
5. Finding who I am and what my limits are!

I'm taking up Thai Boxing (Muay Thai) in a bid to get fit and be more killer-like.. =P Going to sign up for the class this coming weekend.

Anyways, that's about it for now. Happy holidays everyone!

I really need to..

Blog.. Lol.. I've been meaning to, just that I'm home so late and when I finally get everything done, usually fall into bed and concuss.

I have a lot going on my mind... Things have been happening and yea..

Soon~! I promise!!

Time flies...

when you're happy..

I really should blog, but just been really lazy..

I've written all my xmas cards for this year and this is like the 1st time I'm actually sending them out.. Always too lazy to do it but it's fun! I might start doing it every year..

A lot has happened, but I'll update soon.. I promise...

Have a great week everyone! Xmas is coming soon! GO get your shopping and what nots done ok!!

Honey and Tea..

To me, it's a perfect combination.

Thanks so much for the tea, Anh... =)

It's strange but that's exactly what I would get for myself. =) Now to get a pretty teapot so I can brew tea in. It's really yummy btw..

Halo..

I should go back to finishing my essay.. But here I am procrastinating.. Anyways, this song is nice. Reminds me of someone I used to be with. But now, I dun need to wear his halo anymore, cos I have someone else whose halo fit me just perfect. =)

Enjoy...

Halo - The Pussycat Dolls



Lyrics:

I can make love feel just like heaven (oh)
I can be a little devil in bed and (oh)
Even clean and cook your breakfast
But I'm not perfect, I

I can take off when need your time (oh)
I can cheer lead for you from the sideline (oh)
Whisper in your ear so divine
But I'm not perfect, I

Hope you can forgive me baby
For all of the mistakes I've made (ah)
Be patient with me, baby
I'm just tryin' to make my way (oh)
I'm not a superhero
Sorry I couldn't save the day (ah)
Believe me when I say

That I'm sorry I couldn't wear your
Halo, Halo, Halo, Halo
Sorry I couldn't be your
Angel, Angel, Angel, Angel
I'm sorry I couldn't wear your
Halo, Halo, Halo, Halo
Sorry I didn't stroke your
Ego, Ego, Ego, Oh No
I was with him but I guess I wasn't able
I'm sorry I couldn't wear your halo
Halo, Halo

I know how to put your mind at ease and (oh)
I can dress you for all four seasons (oh)
Surprise you for no reason
But I'm not perfect, no

I'm on my knees and pray for our love (oh)
Promise not to let anything come between us (oh)
Could you let us fall apart all because
I'm not perfect, I

Hope you can forgive me baby
For all of the mistakes I've made (ah)
Be patient with me, baby
I'm just tryin' to make my way (oh)
I'm not a superhero
Sorry I couldn't save the day (ah)
Believe me when I say

That I'm sorry I couldn't wear your
Halo, Halo, Halo, Halo
Sorry I couldn't be your
Angel, Angel, Angel, Angel
I'm sorry I couldn't wear your
Halo, Halo, Halo, Halo
Sorry I didn't stroke your
Ego, Ego, Ego, Oh No
I was with him but I guess I wasn't able
I'm sorry I couldn't wear your halo
Halo, Halo

Now it's like you never knew my heart
I swear sometimes you are
So hard on me cause I'm not everything
That you want me to be
I'm so sorry
I didn't want you to see me this way
I'm so sorry
I didn't mean to fall from grace
I didn't mean to fall from grace

I'm sorry I couldn't wear your
Halo, Halo, Halo, Halo
Sorry I couldn't be your
Angel, Angel, Angel, Angel
I'm sorry I couldn't wear your
Halo, Halo, Halo, Halo
Sorry I didn't stroke your
Ego, Ego, Ego, Oh No
I was with him but I guess I wasn't able
I'm sorry I couldn't wear your halo
Halo, Halo

Friday Cookout..

I was bored and it has been a while since I had time all to myself with no classes in the evening. So I did what I love best and that was to cook!

I made the Dutch Winter Stew from Dutch Girl Cooking, with a few variations made. We don't have celeriac here in Singapore, I think I used turmeric powder instead of curry powder and also I used normal paprika instead of the sweet one. The whole thing took about 2 hours to make from scratch and it was really good. I think I will add half curry and half turmeric powder the next time I make thing. Also, rubbing the meat with coarse mustard gives it a whole new depth to the taste.

Here are some pics I took.


Ingredients used.
Leek
Potatoes
Carrots
Mushrooms
Garlic
Onions
Thyme (I used dry cos there weren't any fresh ones available)
Paprika
Turmeric powder
Bay Leaf
Beef shin
Salt and pepper


The meat, cut into cubes and marinated with salt, pepper and coarse mustard.


Melting some butter in olive oil, so the butter doesn't burn.


Browning the meat.


Onions added.


Carrots goes in next.


Add in some beer, room temperature.


Then some beef stock (I used chicken cause I realised I did not have any beef stock cubes at home).

Simmer at a very low heat for about an hour. Add potatoes and leeks and cook for another 30 mins you have yourself a yummy hearty stew... =)

Sorry I forgot to take picture of the end product, was just too hungry for that. Plus I had a movie date with someone. =P

Thats about it I guess.. Dun really know what to say but enjoy your Sunday everyone!

I love you..

The easiest and the hardest 3 little words to say to someone.

I've never in my life heard someone say that with so much feelings, honesty and sincerity.

And I believe you without a doubt....

For I feel that way too..

I love you. <3

Sometimes...

Sorry for lack of updates.. Been super busy with classes, work and assignments..

A friend just broke up with his gf of 2 months. Funny thing is sometimes, you think you know someone, until they do something and then you realise that you never truly knew them. I think it's best they broke up anyways, the girl is so not worth it, from all the things I've heard.

Too bad for me, it took me a year and a half before I realised it. But oh well.. Water under the bridge, life is good for me now. I have friends, family, a life and even a special someone who cares for me, and genuinely wants to be there for me.

So yes, I am happy.

Halloweeennnn....

Hey guys... Not gonna be blogging much, just loads of crazy drunk pics from Friday night.. My best 1st Halloween ever!! Enjoy the pics~!

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At Charlie, the Catwoman's loft... Getting ready and starting the night with lots of drinks...


Me, The Cheeky Punky Schoolgirl.


Me and Dr. Tan. =P


Jessie the Sexy Hogwarts student, Dr. Tan and me


Jamie, me, Charlie the Catwoman and Jessie


Me and the Zombie Bride


My very own Fairy Godfather!! (He was wearing pantyhose and a tutu.. =P)


The Prison Break guy with his ball and chain.


*Muah*


The Sexy Police Officer.. Handcuff me please...


Little Red Riding Hood!


The Greek Goddess...

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After the crazy partying with my classmate, Dr. Tan and her friends, I head over to join my friends.. =P


Jaron and me... Smoky...


Jaron, me and Lcc


Kunni, me and Weiwei


Me, Jaron and Lcc with our Lychee Martinees


Me trying to bite Weiwei... Nice blurry effect..

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Thats the end.. Staggered home at 5.30 am in the morning... Did not have a hangover though, so all good.. Have a great week everyone!!!

Bling...

Been a while since I blogged. Haven't been up to anything. Just school, work and Wow.. =) I have a level 33 Blood Elf Priest now, catching up to Tiff but havent seen her on in a long time. Tiff, where you been~!?

Anyways, went out shopping the other day to get some last min stuffs for my costume for Halloween this Friday. =P Bought a really bling necklace, and I got my nails done today too.. Really awesome.. And only for S$32. Can you believe it?? So cheap.. I'm gonna go back for more.. =)

Anyways, my bling nails and necklace.. =)





Have an awesome week guys, I know I am.. =P

Time really..

Flies... Was just noobing around on my bro's pc when I found some really old pics.. Some from 2 years ago even... =P I have changed so much. Both physically and mentally. It's nice to look back at old pictures and reminisce.

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Me and Mikey at a restaurant. Taken in 2006.


Seraphina (my cousin) and me. Taken during CNY 2007 in my dad's car.


Taken at our parents' anniversary celebration. Photo taken in Aug 2007.


Me, present. =P

I think I've changed. Although I hope its for the better and not worst.

Anyways, 1 more day till the weekends! Long weekend ahead for me, I am happy.. =)

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Was up most of last night finishing my essay. It's a very nice feeling, just concentrating and doing work with Rick Astley in the background singing for me.. =P

To my dear Guardian Angel, Mr F..

Fate is a funny thing. According to Wikipedia, Fate is defined by Destiny, which sorta means everything in life is predetermined for us.

So I guess that it's fate that I should thank for me to get to know Mr F.

Mr F is one of my 2 very best friends. He has always been there when I needed someone to talk to, a shoulder to cry on and when I'm just being unreasonable. He was the one who helped pick me up when I was really down, encourage me when I'm feeling lost and giving me advice when I need them. He's also there to feed my emotion-neediness, always patient with me and always makes me laugh.

He has helped me grow as a better person. Helped me become more independent. Helped make me see that being happy and loving myself is more important than what others think. Helped me come out of the shell I was trapped in. Helped me see that I'm worth something, and not to lose faith in myself.

He's a very funny guy, full of charm, but sometimes can be real kid at heart. He's a very thoughtful person, who thinks through everything he does, but sometimes think too much about little stuffs. Which just makes him more unique and one of a kind.

Overall though, he's a nice guy through and through. He is very protective of the people he calls friends and family, and I'm truly honoured that I belong to his circle of friends. One could not ask for a better friend and guardian angel.

So on this very special day of his, I would like to dedicate this song to him. I would also like to thank him for being a friend when I needed when I was lost. For being himself.

For being the footprints in the sand of my life.


So to Mr Vu Quang Nguyen, Happy 32nd Birthday to you. May all your wishes come true for the coming year and have a happy day today... You earned it! =)

Love you heaps, my Guardian Angel!

Twitchy...

My eyelids have been twitching on and off for the past 2 weeks. I think my body is going nuts...

Common causes of eye twitching is:
- Fatigue or lack of sleep
- Emotional stress
- Too much Caffeine
- Anxiety
- Brain damage

Maybe my brain is shutting down already.. Lol...

Middle of the week, 2 more days to go..

HooYah~!

Buggered out...

I'm so stressed out... Should really be doing my work but here I am..

Anyways, a short post. The job I interviewed for, I got it but I declined it. I think I'll stick to my job for now. Dun wanna make any big changes since I'm about to have my exams soon..

It's the end of Monday, 4 more days to go till the weekend!

I cannot wait..........

Womanizer...

The new song from Britney is so catchy. The video is pretty cool too.. Haha.. I love her get-up with red hair and tattoos...

I have a thing for tattoos and red.. =P

Enjoy...

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Womanizer - Britney Spears

Interview...

I have an interview today. I feel kinda scared and bored. Lol.. There's a lot of things on my mind, but I just feel like I should just go there and try for it. Not gonna think too much first.

Been kind of worried about my health lately. Seems I'm quite toxic inside my body, what with lack of sleep, lots of alcohol and unhealthy food. Need to change that a little.

I'll be getting a new WoW account this weekend I think. To play with some friends and level a character for Wrath of Lich Kicg. But I've been thinking, since we're all 3 hours apart because of Daylight Savings, means I'll only be able to log on weekends for like a few hours. Is it worth it?

Bleah, I've been kinda broke lately so not sure whether I should... Advise please?

Stalker-zilla...

I found out someone is stalking me through my blog
a) Through someone who reads my blog
or
b) by accessing my blog through my own password.
I hope its not (b) because I hope no one is so despicable as to invade anyone's privacy like that.

The reason why this blog is password protected is cause I only want certain people reading it. So whatever is mentioned here should stay here. I don't really appreciate people talking about what I write about to people who no longer has access to the blog.

Now I'm not sure how that particular someone knows things that I know, but I'm taking precautions here. Have already changed my password and I hope you guys reading this blog will not say anything about anything!

I am happy living my life the way I want, and I do not want him to know anything about how I am doing or what my friends are telling me. He's not entitled to anything about my life because he's not part of it anymore.

So please... I don't like my private thoughts being invaded by people I do not care about.
Thanks so much everyone, if you could all just do this little thing for me...

I still love you all.. =)

Hmmm...

There's a lot I want to blog about, but I dun seem to have the strength to do it.

I'm back at the standstill whereby I feel bored again. Need a change of some sort in my life. I might want to change jobs. Kinda sick of my current job and I think I need to learn something new.

We'll see how it goes.

So many thoughts, so little energy to convert them into words.

Oh, I had my math test today, I think I did alright. =)

Kinda losing touch though, with my sums, need to exercise my brain a little.

Also, I've compiled a I-want list.. Need some suggestions on what to get first.
- Samsung Omnia
- Ipod Nano 16G
- PSP Slim (White or Silver)

How do people find the time to exercise? I come home everyday feeling tired and drained. I should start working out, feel kinda grossed out and FAT! Need to tone tone tone! Anyone wanna be my personal trainer for free? =P

On another note, I really wanna get my tattoo done soon. I already know what I want, got all the references and everything. Now I just need the tattooist and the right time to do it. =) I'm thinking of doing a 2nd one next year when I go to Sydney. Hee... I am terrible... =P

Anyways, hope everyone have a great week ahead. Take care of your health.

An update....

I have been remiss in updating about what's happening.

School is pretty fun and interesting. I'm liking what I'm doing now. Love the subjects (cept for Physics and Maths), the lecturers are pretty good and the class is awesome! We have the joker, the smart people and the outcast. =)

Life-wise, I'm getting on pretty well. Learning to appreciate myself, my friends and my family more.

I'm heading towards my ultimate goal of working in Australia, baby steps at a time but I'm going strong. I'm learning that one can be strong when they have the will to be.

Found out someone has already started dating. Funny thing is, it doesn't hurt as much as I thought it would.

Life goes on. No point thinking about what ifs and nots.

A friend asked me recently what are my expectations for the next relationship I go into. After a week of thoughts, I think I know my answer now. The most important thing I want is for him to treat me like I'm his everything. He must be able to make me trust him whole-heartedly. Someone like my dad, who treats my mom like she's the apple of his eyes. =P

Sounds cheesy but they've been married 20 odd years. I guess that worked out for them, and they're still very much in love and going strong. I want exactly the same thing like what they have. But I'm not gonna look for it.

When the time comes, it comes.

Meanwhile, live for the moment because life is unpredictable. The most important thing is to be happy. =)

Have a great week everyone.

Stress....

I have my anatomy test tonight...

Haven't done any studying for some time now, and my classmates are all putting the pressure on.. LoL...

But it's fun, and I'm pretty confident about it. =)

Will blog again to tell you how it goes...

On my mind...

I was at home the whole day today. Doing nothing but chilling out, catching up on sleep and watching animes.

Was supposed to go out for lunch with a friend and maybe movie later, but I sorta chickened out. Maybe it's the fact that it's just me and him, and we're just newly acquainted. And the way he asked me made it sound a little like he was asking me out on a date. At first we sorta just agreed to have lunch, then he added the movie part, I was kinda hesitant and said we'll see how. Then before I went to bed last night, I chickened out. He's a really nice guy, and just recently got out of a relationship too. So since I'm not ready for anything yet, better not to lead him on.

I'm trying to become a better person now, not like how I was when I was younger.

My emotions have been going a little haywire past week. Maybe it's the stress, but I find myself thinking about my past relationships and my ex-es. The 2 I loved the most. Gets a bit lonely sometimes when you're alone and even if you have frens and all, you still feel like you're alone sometimes.

I am trying to attain what Mooiness has attained. He calls it his single man's mantra. It's so true though, cause even if you're in a relationship, you do have to still complete yourself cause your other half might not always be there to complete. Sometimes, they might get tired of trying to complete you, which might be what happened to me and Mr Mat. But that is a story for another time.

So yea, the song playing is sorta what's been on my mind lately. Also kinda tells you what kind of music I'm listening to lately too. Have been spending some of my waking time reflecting on my life, past relationships, and things that has been happening right now.

It's good to have friends, and also to keep up some of the acquaintances I've made. I like being with people who appreciate you for being who you are. But then again, humans are a bunch of interesting species. We are all the same, yet so different. Oh well, I'm rambling now.

But bottom line is, I'm happy. Happier than I thought I would ever be.

Anyways, hope everyone have a great week. =) Miss you all so much. Can't wait till next year, when I go down to Australia.

Take care of your health, peace~!

I'm gonna miss him...

The family sent him off for enlistment. We will not be able to see him for the next 2 weeks. I hope he does alright. =)

Somehow, the house feels empty without his usually-irritating presence. =P

I hope he still retains that silliness he has when he comes back.



P.S. I love that shirt he has on. Everytime I see it, it reminds me of Davo.. =P

Taking a walk...

I did something today. Before I picked up the phone to dial Mr J's number, I hesitated.

Once.

Twice.

And the third time, I finally pressed dial.

Hearing his voice when he finally picked up the phone just sent a rush of memories through my head. Good and bad.

Sigh. This just proves my theory. People who used to be together can never ever truly become 'normal' friends again.

After all that they went through, things that they've said to each other and promises they gave each other. Even after almost 2 years, it's still weird and awkward.

Things can never go back the way they were before the relationship, before when they were just 'friends'.

The morning after...

I haven't lost my temper and go crazy for a while now. Feels kinda good to get it outta my system. But things are all better now..

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Anyways, went out to a games cafe last night with some friends and I had a good time. Just some friends going crazy playing games, good conversation, non-alcoholic drinks and no loud music, just us making lots of noise. Very different from the usual nightlife entertainment I am used to, and much more fulfilling too, I must admit.

Some pictures from the night. =)

I'm soooooooooooooooooooooo.....

FREAKING ANGRY RIGHT NOW!!

Everyone assumes I should be doing all the things at home. Does my work and school means nothing?

So now that everything is in a mess, its my fault? I tried ok, not like the person who's at home all day in his room doing nothing. I cook for him and he leaves it there for me to clean up. The only reason why he did clean up was cos he needed to use the freaking pot to cook his food. And then he gets all aggro cause he has to wash a few more extra plates?

And mom comes home, and assumes I've been out all week playing. Meh, the only time I went out this week was today, cause I had classes and work every single f-ing day.

And to top off a wonderful night, A FUCKING COCKROACH DECIDES TO FUCKING VISITS ME IN THE ROOM.

AND THAT'S THE FUCKING CHERRY I NEEDED TO TOP OF MY REALLY AWESOME NIGHT!

I'M SO FREAKING ANGRY RIGHT NOW I WANT TO SCREEEEEAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM....................

AAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~!

Totally into the...

Bento craze now.. All because of the Food Pornographer and her bento lunches.

So I woke up to make myself 1 today for lunch. I was running a bit behind time and had to take a cab to work or I would have been late for work.

It was a really simple bento lunch, which I did not have until about 30 mins ago. Hahaha...

What can I say, plans change and I was craving for food not in my bento box. But oh well, at least I tried.

These Bento boxes are so cute though... I want some for Christmas!!!

I'm got an epic~!

I have long purple hair now!

Lol... Will post pics once the pimple on my face heals up. According to someone, it's really distracting... =P

Have a great week everyone. =)

Le sigh...

The previous post makes me sound mean, but I have to be mean to make sure I dun slip. Being mean does not become me, because I will try to be nice first, unless something changes it. In this instance, I have to be like that because frankly speaking, I'm not totally over him. It still hurts when he does things like that. Makes me soft and then I go into semi-depression mode which is bad for me. Survival of the fittest, we do what we have to do to survive in this dog eat dog world.

Sometimes, it's other mean people that make you feel as though you have to be mean to them. Like that's the only way they function.

Human behavior disgusts me sometimes. Especially when its selfish or demanding behavior. You see it everyday, be it outside when you're out shopping, when you're at work or even when you're at home. Being selfish and demanding sometimes in a way is good, but when it becomes a part of you, that's when people start seeing your ugly side.

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Example 1:
There was an uncle who was really rude and obnoxious whom I encountered on my way to work on the train this morning. He was sleeping, leaning the back of his head against the window, with his mouth wide open. It was a pretty funny sight, and made even funnier when he snorted and snored. But to the people around him, they would think that it would be just annoying and rude.

Later he woke up, and was talkign really loudly on his mobile phone. Just as he was about to get off the train, it jerked and some guy (let's just call him Mr. A) lost his balance and stepped on his feet. He gave Mr A a stare and sort-of scolded the guy, even though the Mr A was really apologetic.

My thoughts on the situation:
Him sleeping and making an embarrassment out of himself is his problem, not mine, just that he made himself look really uncultured. But when he scolded the poor guy for accidentally stepping on him, I thought that was just rude. It's not as though Mr A wanted to lose his balance and step on anyone. Him doing what he did embarrassed Mr A, and most probably spoilt the poor Mr A's day.

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Example 2:
I was at work, when this professional, pretty looking female (lets call her Ms B) walks in. She wanted to see the doctor, and proceeded to tell me she wanted to charge her medical fees under her company since it's under our contract listings. It was all good up till this point until she failed to produce her badge and if I were to follow procedure, I could have refused to let her charge it under her company.

I told her that it was compulsory for her to produce her badge for identification BUT being the nice person that I was, I said I could let it slide and that she should bring her badge the next time. Ms B got all aggro and said she could call her HR or whatever to talk to me to verify, and proceeded to tell me she was really sick and if I didn't want to let her see the doctor, then she could go to other doctor. Then she demanded her identity card back and walked off before I said anything.

My thoughts:
I was seriously pissed with her. I'm trying to be the nice person here and let it slide and she goes all aggro on me like I'm the difficult person here. What was worst was Ms B looked really professional and nice, which totally crushed my first impression of her when that happened.

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Moral of the story:
Never try to be a nice person first. If people are nice to you then you can start being nice to them.

Also, when there are no understanding between humans, there will never be any niceness in life. Just lots of misunderstandings and selfish behavior.
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The weekend is coming. I can't wait for it, so I can sleep in. Working full-time and studying part-time is starting to take a toll on me. I miss my mom, who's currently in Korea with dad right now. =(

I wanna have a holiday too....

What the hell was he thinking?

The message:
'Heyhey ivy :) hows things? Unis started yet? I'm so happy/proud of you. study hard ok.'

My thoughts:
Hmmm... Do I look like I care? Do you want me to think that you care?

Because I seriously dun. And if I do get a chance next time something like this happens again, I'm gonna say to him: 'Whatever, Trevor!'

The end.

It's time....

To walk out of the depressive mood I have been in and continue with what I am doing, feeling much more sure of everything.

I'm feeling much better after the 'alone' time I had with myself. To think and to remember. About the past, about what I am doing now, and about the future that I want.

=)

Lesson Learned

[Alicia Keys]
He broke my heart
And now it's raining just to rub it in
I'm at your door
I feel so crazy bout it

You'll say, "I told you so"
You saw it long ago
You knew he had to go

I finally came around
I'm back on solid ground
Can't let it get me down
Nah

[John Mayer]
It's alright
It's alright
It's alright

[Alicia Keys]
It's alright

[John Mayer]
It's alright

[Alicia Keys]
Yeah

[John Mayer]
It's alright

[Alicia Keys]
Yeah

[John Mayer]
It's alright


[Alicia Keys]
Yes I was burned but I called it a lesson learned
Mistake overturned so I call it a lesson learned
My soul has returned so I call it a lesson learned
Another lesson learned

Sometimes some lies can take a minute to fully realize

His tears
Your eyes
Thirty seconds to apoligize

You give him one more chance
(Yeah)
Just like the time before
(Yeah)
But he already knows you'd give a hundred more

Until that night in bed
(Yeah)
You wake up in a sweat
(Yeah)
You're racing to the door
Can't take it anymore

I was burned but I call it a lesson learned
Mistake overturned so I call it lesson learned
Whoa
Oh
Oh
My soul has returned so I call it a lesson learned
Another lesson learned

Life perfect ain't perfect if you don't know what the struggles for
Falling down ain't falling down if you don't cry when you hit the floor
It's called the past 'cause im getting past
And I ain't nothing like I was before
You oughta see me now

Yes I was burned but I call it a lesson learned
Mistake overturned so I call it lesson learned
Oh
Oh
Oh
Oh
My soul has returned so I call it a lesson learned
Another lesson learned

Whoa
Oh
Oh

Said
Yes I was burned but I called it a lesson learned

[John Mayer]
(It's alright)
(It's alright)
(It's alright)

[Alicia Keys]
Said
Mistake overturned so I call it a lesson learned

[John Mayer]
(It's alright)
(Lesson learned)

[Alicia Keys]
My soul has returned so I call it a lesson learned

[John Mayer]
(It's alright)
(It's alright)
(It's alright)

[Alicia Keys]
Oh
Lesson learned

Whoa
Oh
Oh
Oh
Oh
Lesson learned

[John Mayer]
(It's alright)
(Lesson learned)

It's alright
It's alright
It's alright

It's alright
Lesson learned

It's alright
It's alright
It's alright

Never the same again...

Nothing is ever going to be the same anymore. Life itself is changing, so is everyone I know. What I do know that will remain the same is that I will always feel lonely, no matter where, what or who I am with.

Been feeling kinda listless lately. And terribly terribly alone. I know I can talk to friends, but... I just don't feel like talking.

Friends who are busy with their life, and those who had their hearts stolen... I just feel totally out of place. Not that it's their fault, but they just seem.. happy..

Unlike me...

Oh well, I hope this phase passes soon. Been feeling like a zombie lately, what with a lack of sleep, nightmares and being mindfucked.

Nightmare...

I had a nightmare yesterday and I woke up feeling nauseous and giddy.

It scared me awake a couple of times throughtout the night and it was just so random.

=(

I'm scared.

Too bad I cant do this...

The Downside of...

Being Single.

1. Boys being interested in you, and wants to get to know you.

2. Boys being interested in you, and wants to get into your pants.

3. Boys acting weird and blaming you for it.

4. Having no one special to care for and be cared for.

5. Having no intimacy of any kind at all.

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Stayed at home the whole day today. Kinda boring but restful. I'll be starting classes tomorrow night and I'm a little scared. Going to go to bed soon, so I will not fall asleep in class.

Framed up my super-emo poster today. Will most probably mount it on the wall soon, maybe next weekend. Also got a Wii last weekend, for free! =)

Dun really feel like saying much, just wanted to update a little to let people know that I am still alive.

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I'm starting on another chapter of my life story. Kinda wish he was here with me, but what's done is done. Only thing left to do is to continue writing my story without him as a character anymore.

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Have a great week everyone, and enjoy the song of the week.

Build God, Then We'll Talk - Panic at The Disco

Lyrics:

It's these substandard motels on the (lalalalala) corner of 4th and Freemont Street
Appealing, only because they are just that un-appealing
Any practiced catholic would cross themselves upon entering
The rooms have a hint of asbestos and maybe a just dash of formaldehyde
And the habit of decomposing right before your very (lalalala) eyes

Along with the people inside
What a wonderful caricature of intimacy
Inside, what a wonderful caricature of intimacy

Tonight tenants range from: a lawyer and a virgin
Accessorizing with a rosary tucked inside her lingerie
She's getting a job at the firm come Monday
The Mrs. will stay with the cheating attorney
Moonlighting aside, she really needs his money
Oh, wonderful caricature of intimacy.

Yeah (Yeah)

And not to mention, the constable, and his proposition, for that "virgin"
Yes, the one the lawyer met with on "strictly business"
As he said to the Mrs. well only hours before
After he had left, as she was fixing her face in a compact
There was a terrible crash (there was a terrible crash)
Between her and the badge
She spilled her purse and her bag, and held a "purse" of a different kind.

Along with the people inside
What a wonderful caricature of intimacy
Inside, what a wonderful caricature of intimacy

There are no...
Raindrops on roses and girls in white dresses
It's sleeping with roaches and taking best guesses
The shade of the sheets and before all the stains
And a few more of your least favorite things

Raindrops on roses and the girls in white dresses
And the sleeping with the roaches and the taking best guesses
At the shade of the sheets before all the stains
And a few more of your least favorite things

Inside, what a wonderful caricature of intimacy
Inside, what a wonderful caricature of intimacy

Raindrops on roses and girls in white dresses
It's sleeping with the roaches and the taking best guesses
At the shade of the sheets before all the stains
And a few more of your least favorite things

Raindrops on roses and the girls in white dresses
And the sleeping with the roaches and the taking best guesses
At the shade of the sheets before all the stains
And a few more of your least favorite things

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P.S. The Imeem is broken and I can't find a good one. So I'll be posting the youtube concert version of it. Give it a listen, its really really good. Sorry again guys... =)

I feel like...

Cooking something sometime this week. I dunno what I feel like cooking but I just want to cook something... LoL... I'm weird..

Nothing much has been happening this past few weeks, hence the lack of posts. I will be doing a post about my awesome time at SingFest 2008 soon, since my bro has uploaded the pics already.

School is starting next week, and I have orientation this Friday. I feel kinda scared but extremely excited about it. =)

Went to Ikea over the weekends and will be sorta redocrating the room this weekend. I love shopping, esp grocery and furniture. =P

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I've been partying pretty hard this few weeks and I think I gotta tone down a little.

A friend, whom I just met recently, has been acting a bit weird. Every morning after we're done clubbing, he would apologise to me for any inappropriate things he did the night before. The funny thing though is, he's never done anything that has made me wary of him. He said something like:' I've been acting weird ever since I met you...' Is that a good thing or bad thing?

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Thats about it for now I guess..
Not really in the mood to blog right now.. Have a good week.

Updated..

The song of the week.. Jason Mraz is freaking awesome guy.. Kinda cute too, and he's like really really awesome live~! His band is very cool too!

Enjoy.

I miss you...

My 2 best friends are away for a while..

I miss both of them... =(

Hope they come back soon~!

I'm not missing you...

Had an awesome day today, but I'm way too tired to blog.. Anyways, decided the song of the week today when I was at SingFest 2008..

Stacie Orrico sang this and I cried when I listened carefully to the the lyrics and her singing this song just totally gave me strength and wisdom. It's good to have music in our world because there is always a song written out there to help you go through the good and the bad times, for whatever situations.

Hope you enjoy it as much as I did.

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I'm Not Missing You - Stacie Orrico

Oohh
I'm not missing you

Been through just about everything that I could go through
When it comes to relationships
Don't know what I was missing or why I ain't listen
When I told myself that was it
Now here I go
Hurt again 'cause of my curiousity
Now that it's over
What else could it be
He just had to cheat

I made a promise never to settle why didn't I keep it
'Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating
The fooling around
But I'm not missing you

[chorus:]
I'm not going through the motions
Waiting and a hoping you call me
I'm not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because I've got life to do
I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you go
But this time it's different
I don't even feel the distance
I'm not missing
I'm not missing you

It's a shame in a way
'Cause I feel that I may not ever find the right one for me
Did I leave him
Is he right in front of my face (Oh)
Will my true love ever be
Why would I go on a search again when I know what the end will be
What good is love when it keeps on hurting me

I made a promise never to settle why didn't I keep it (Keep it)
'Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating
The fooling around
But I'm not missing you

[chorus:] x2
I'm not going through the motions
Waiting and a hoping you call me
I'm not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because I've got life to do
I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you go
But this time it's different
I don't even feel the distance
I'm not missing
I'm not missing you

[bridge:]
No I can't be with you 'cause I'm scared
Felt like I was falling when you left me
I can't keep going through life
Unaware of what I missed and the person I could be
Love's good when it's right
Bad when it's left in your memory
All the times I let you down
I guess love will be nice for someone else's life

But I'm not missing you

[chorus:]
I'm not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me (nah)
I'm not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because I've got life to do
I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you go
(I used to hate it oh)
Different
(See the distance)
I'm not missing
I'm not missing you

I'm not going through emotions
(Yeah yeah yeah)
Waiting and hoping you call me
(Knocking at my door)
You might have had me open
But I must be going because (It's the best day of my life)
I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you go (No no no no)
Different
Feel the distance
I'm not missing
I'm not missing you

You
Ooh
Oh
I'm not missing you
No baby
I'm not missing you

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To Mr F, I can tell you that I am slowly not missing him anymore. =) But then if I ever do slip, I hope you will be there to pick me up. Thanks so much for what you have done, I would never have walked such a long way without you. *Hugs*

Awwww...

To those who watch Grey's Anatomy, you would have to be totally cold to not love this scene...



If ever my future husband were to say something like this, I would just melt and die.

Some weird things you'll never..

Guess about me...


I've a lot of things I'm afraid of, as most of you would know. But the one greatest thing I fear the most is growing old. In fact it scares me so much, that one of my wish/hope is that I would be able to die young, so I do not have to experience the pains of being an old person.

The reason why I'm so scared of it, is because you can no longer be independant and take care of yourself or your family. Your eyesight goes bad, hearing deteriotes and if you're stricken by disease and illness, you have to either depend on medication or people to look after you. The thought that you might be a burden to people whom you love just makes me hate the fact that everyone has to grow old.

Maybe thats the reason why I have this fascination with vampires. The fact that they are immortal and they can look youthful forever. To be able to live for hundreds of years would be an interesting situation to be in. For one, because I am a history buff, I would like to live and experience some of the most amazing things that has ever happened in our history. I would travel everywhere, learn about cultures and the people.

Although it would be heart-breaking if you were to see your loved ones around you, growing old and dying. It would certainly be a lonely lonely existence. Maybe thats what makes vampires so mysterious, that they have gone through what they have, both physically and emotionally.

It would not be easy being a vampire because of the loneliness you have to bear, and the fact you have to prey on people for blood. =P

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On to less morbid stuffs, I went for my first driving lesson last Friday and it was AWESOME! I'm so hooked onto driving right now, and I can't wait for the next lesson. LoL.. My instructor was extremely awesome and gave me lots of time to practice for my first lesson. Doesn't hurt that I'm actually a pretty quick learner. =P So my next lesson is next week, hope I'll be able to start learning on the road soon as my TP test is in October. =)

Been going out less for the past week, and it has been a lonely affair to be at home alone. I think staying at home once in a while is fine, as long as you have things to occupy yourself with. I was thinking of him a lot when I was home alone. It wasn't really that bad, just that it felt kinda bittersweet, remembering things.

Oh well, what's done is done. I need to keep moving and keep myself in check to make sure I dun slip.

Currently still waiting for my timetable. About 2-3 more weeks till my course starts and still nothing.. Gosh! Worst ever...

Anyways, hope you guys have a great week! Take care~!

XOXO

Randomness...

A bit lazy to do up a post today.. So I'm just gonna post up some pictures..

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Dad's Birthday Celebration


Dinner @ Thai Village


Birthday Cake from N.Y.D.C

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Random shots I did when I couldn't sleep the other night.


Emo postcard I got. Love the writings and the leaf girl though. 'Before the trees dry out and I wither away like the leaf that I am... Please let me have one last dance with the wind...'


Mr Wombat and Mr Lexus Bear, my sleeping companions.


The puzzle I finished in 2 nights.


The time I got into bed after all the randomness.

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Random picture taken when I was drinking.


The Identification Cards of me and my drink-mates. =P

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Good night everyone. =)

P.S. I just realised... All my pictures are taken at the same freaking angles.... FAIL~!

Panda Eyes...

I haven't been getting enough sleep lately, starting to have dark rings around my eyes. Need to catch up on sleep, I look so bad with dark rings. Especially since I'm so fair, makes my 'panda eyes' so prominent. It doesn't help that I'm having my period too, making my complexion sucks! Oh well... I guess I need to catch up on this things little by little.

Went out last night for drinks with S and G, and the conversation was interesting. Interesting because I learned a lot more about those guys. More about themselves, about what they feel about some of the topics we brought up and what they have (or have not) done.

And I also realised something about myself this past week, and that is I am not ready to be dating again nor do I want to. To me right now, boys are fun 'playthings'. By 'playthings', I'm meaning good to hang out and have fun with as friends. I'm having a lot of fun just making friends and doing whatever I like and want to. Don't really want to be bogged down by another relationship, or worst, crushes. Annoying to have people have crushes on you, especially with my mindset now. Totally told this guy I wasn't interested, and he backed off a little.. Hahahaha, but I'm still gonna be wary around him though...

Boys are funny creatures.

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Anyways, was having a conversation with F just the other day about a friend of his, who's going through a rough break up, and I'm so glad I got out of the phase so quickly. I only wallowed in my misery for about 1 week, and then got on with my life.

It's so easy to be selfish when you're feeling like that. You feel like you're alone, even though your friends and family are there, and just wanna talk about you and your feelings. I kinda know how that feels (being both on the giving and receiving ends), especially if they just would not get out of that phase. Seriously, can't they just open their eyes and see for themselves that it's over, that they should stop being stupid and move on asap! I mean, they're not the only ones who have gone through tough break ups. And whatever it is they're doing is making people who cares worry and feeling frustrated.

But then again, I like to think that people are predictable. Like when F asks me, if Mr Y were to beg me to get back together with him, would I be able to handle it?

In all honestly, I will say that I will be able to handle it if it's done with me not having to face him.

But if he was here face to face with me, and asks me that, I will definitely not be able to handle it.

However, I know Mr Y would never do that.

Because he is predictable.

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I will be having my 1st driving lesson this week. Hope I don't drive the car into a tree on the first lesson.

Have a great week everyone.
XOXO

Quiet Time

I think this week is gonna be a quiet week for me.

I have my Driving Final Theory Test this friday, and not much plans for the weekends. I've also realised I've neglected doing some cooking and baking for quite some time. Might get back to it this week. Wanna try making French Onion Soup, haven't had that before. And weirdly enough, I've been craving pasta a lot this few days. Need to satisfy that craving soon, before I go crazy.

I bought a 300 piece jigsaw puzzle last Sunday and started it last night. It's almost halfway done (with my bro's help). I might get a 2500 - 3000 pieces one once I'm done with this one. Puzzles are actually pretty fun. It helps pass time, exercises patience and at the end of it, you'll get an awesome art piece you can decorate your room with. =) So much more gratifying than playing computer games. =P

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I'm feeling more like myself now. Being single for the first time in almost 5 years, it's pretty refreshing because you get to do what you want, go out with whomever and come back whenever. You don't have to worry about other people or even report to them about what you are doing or who you are going out with.

Although I do miss the little things. Like when he calls just to tell you he misses you. Or when he's feeling sad or troubled and you're the first person he calls. Or when you just cuddle and not say a word.

But ultimately, you have to get over things like that and move on.

Maybe someday we will be friends. Maybe that day will never come. Whatever it is, I wish him all the best in all his future endeavours.

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Anyways, have a great week everyone. =) Take care~!

XOXO

All drained out... >.<

Busy busy weekend just passed for me. Been out till the wee hours of the morning for 3 nights in a roll.. Just got back home from watching Hancock. It was an awesome movie, because it left me feeling very satisfied. There was a storyline, action scenes were awesome and last of all, it has a little bit of romance in it. I highly recommend it.

Met an old high school friend last night for dinner. She introduced me to a few of her Poly mates, and one of them is pretty cute... Heehee... And I found out that they like to club too. So yay~! Another bunch of new found clubbermates for me to hang out with~!

Work-wise, my life hasn't been that awesome. Got a complain from a patient because of a mistake of mine. Made me feel kinda scared when she started yelling at me and wanted to talk to my doctor. Sigh.. I dunno what's gonna be the outcome but kinda resigned to whatever fate awaits me when I get back to work.

Currently still waiting for the announcement of my class schedule. Kinda sick of waiting because I feel like I'm just endlessly waiting and that makes me feel kinda frustrated and restless. Sigh... Hope I get it soon.

Anyways, thats about it I guess for updates.

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Personal thoughts:

Is it bad if you were to be yourself and have fun? What if there are people and feelings involved? Do you have to explain yourself to them and set them straight first before they start having misconceptions? Or are you supposed to just wait till they say something before you set them straight? What if you can't truly ever get over the past and it scars you forever and makes you afraid?

So many many questions.... My head is about to explode........................................

*BOOM*

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Anyways, have a great week everyone. =)

OH OH OH~!

I have to share my fave scene of the show with you~! It is soooooooooooooooooo FUNNY!!! It's wat made me fell in love with Nakatsu Shuichi~! Enjoy!!!

I'm in Love~!

Isn't he the cutest? He's my new found love, Ikuta Toma.. So cute!! I wanna marry him~!





Go watch Hanazakari no Kimitachi e if you love shoju manga turned tv series Japanese dramas! It's super funny and cute!!!

Last day of June..

Today is the last day of June, which also marks half the year which has gone by so quickly.

So, I'm hereby gonna make a resolutions list for the last 6 months left of this year to fulfill some of the things I've always wanted to get done. Note that I've never made up any resolutions list because of the procrastinate-y and lazy-arse nature that I have.

1. Get my driving licence by the end of this year, so I can drive my Papa's new car~! *will load up a new picture when I get one from him*
2. Study hard and be one of the top 3 students in my foundation class.
3. Reconnect with old friends and make lots of new ones.
4. Learn a new skill. (Thinking of either a new language, or playing the guitar.)
5. Finding who I am and what my limits are!

=)

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Anyways, I've been out almost every day last week. Tiring but fun and guess what.. I'm sick!! I have a really painful sore throat now. Must be all the food I've been chomping down non-stop, that and the lack of sleep I've been having. Can you imagine coming home at 5am in the morning, going to bed at 6.30 am then waking up again at 9.30am to go out again? Or coming home at 4am in the morning, going to bed at 4.30am then waking up at 7.30am for work again?

Haha.. Kinda hectic but well, I wanna have some fun before I start school because once I start classes, I'm gonna be buried in my books. Haha.. So much to learn and so little time. I have to re-acquaint myself with Chemistry and Physics. Also have to make new friends with Biology. Gosh! So much to do~!

Frankly, it's a bit daunting and I haven't even gotten my timetable yet. Also need to re-arrangement my work schedule so I can make it for classes, meet the work quota of 10 shifts per week and set some time for revision/projects/assignments. Oh well.. I can't wait till my life makes such a huge change!

Wish me luck and I hope you guys will support me! =) Have an awesome week everyone and take care of your health! Not be like me. =P Ciao~!

Stay Just a little...

I came across this girl by accident. This song is very nice, and very sad... And she is pretty amazing.. =)

Enjoy.



Lyrics:

I heard it in your voice when your love died
On a telephone connection spanning miles and miles of wire
You said it was over and then cried and cried
You were gone before I said goodbye

And I don't like to think it is true
That distance came between us like a knife and cut right through
When did we go wrong and let it all undo?
The only one I ever loved was you.

Would you stay just a little, my love?
Would you sway just a little my love?
Because the hole in the middle of my heart needs filling up
If you stay just a little, that's enough.

It kills me as I lay awake at night
Remembering the last kiss that we shared doesn't feel right
Is it impossible for me to win this fight
Keep you a little longer in my life?

Would you stay just a little, my love?
Would you sway just a little my love?
Because the hole in the middle of my heart needs filling up
If you stay just a little, that's enough.

Ohhhh.....
Ohhhh.....

Would you stay just a little, my love?
Would you sway just a little my love?
Because the hole in the middle of my heart needs filling up
If you stay just a little...
If you stay just a little, that's enough.

Aquarius...

The Origins...

Aquarius

The Chinese Equivalent of Aquarius..

Tiger

And I'm born in the year of the Tiger and also under the starsign Aquarius... freaky......

My Life according to...

My Ipod list..

Was looking through the archives of a friend's blog and I came across a past post he did. Since I'm bored and at work, might as well have some fun with it.

So what you do is to:
1.Open your music library.
2. Put it on shuffle.
3. Press play.
4. For every question, type the song that’s playing.
5. When you go to a new question, press the ‘next’ button.
6. Don’t lie.

Opening credits: Go To War - Akon Feat Papoose
Waking up: Kiss You - Cassie Feat Ryan Leslie
First day of High School: Call Me When You're Sober - Evanescence
Falling in love: Hundred - The Fray
Fight song: Run It (Remix) - Chris Brown Feat Bow Wow and JD
Breaking up: Lie About Us - Avant Feat Nicole Schezinger
Prom: I Salute - Tyrese
Life: As The World Turns - Eminem
Mental breakdown: Dem Jeans - Chingy Feat Jermaine Dupri
Driving: It Had Better Be Tonight - Michael Buble
Flashback: Makes Me Wonder - Maroon 5
Getting back together: Fighting Over Me - Paris Hilton
Wedding: Get In, Get Fit - Ciara
Birth of child: Beautiful Girl - Kim Ah Jung (From the 200 pong Beauty Soundtrack)
Final battle: Too Little Too Late - JoJo
End credits: Watch Your Back - 50 Cent

Gosh... So Random! But hmm.. some actually makes sense.. Lol... Like if I were to wake up with someone next to me, I'll really give the special someone a kiss. For fight song and mental breakdown, I'll probably be going to a club to get it all out of my system. I like the birth of a child though, to have the title as A Beautiful Girl. =)

Haha... This is strange and fun! Try it if you run out of blog materials... Heehee... Or you could be like me and just youtube link.. =P

Have a great week everyone!

Cheating~!

Someone mentioned I was cheating by posting youtube links... So I decided to just do a proper blog post.

Went out last night with my gf and got pretty wasted. Sad thing was I became the type of drunk girls I hate. Went emo and all.. Sigh, at least it's out of my system. Maybe it's cause I was trying too hard, to move on and get over him. Hence the breakdown last night.

It gets pretty tiring sometimes though, because you have to be brave and put on a front so that people don't worry too much about you. It gets worst sometimes when you're alone. But it has been getting better.. The lonely times are more bearable and I think less of him now.

Good thing about this turn of events is I've realised how many good friends I have. And how I've neglected them because of the relationship. Trying really hard to make it up to them now by being there as much as I can, and not someone who comes and goes. So far it's working pretty well for me, my friends being really supportive.

I'm finding myself back again, because someone told me I wasn't fun anymore, not the same Ivy he used to know. What he doesn't know was that Ivy was there all along, just totally suppressed because he didn't like the real Ivy. I think it's just an excuse, but it hurts nonetheless. Strange how words can hurt more then actions.

Anyways, have a good week everyone.

Stranger...

Lyrics:
Nobody believes me when I tell 'em that you're out of your mind
Nobody believes me when I tell 'em that there's so much you hide

You treat me like a queen when we go out
Wanna show everyone what our love's about
All wrapped up in me whenever there is a crowd
But when no ones around

Theres no kindness in your eyes
The way you look at me, it's just not right
I can tell what's going on this time
Theres a stranger in my life

You're not the person that I once knew
Are you scared to let them know it's you?
If they could only see you like I do
Then they would see a stranger too

Did I ever do anything that was this cruel to you?
Did I ever make you wonder who was standing in the room?

You made yourself look perfect in everyway
So when this goes down I'm the one that will be blamed
Your plan is working so you can just walk away
Baby your secret's safe

Theres no kindness in your eyes
The way you look at me, it's just not right
I can tell what's going on this time
Theres a stranger in my life

You're not the person that I once knew
Are you scared to let them know it's you?
If they could only see you like I do
Then they would see a stranger too

Such a long way back from this place we arrived
When I think of all the time I've wasted I could cry

Theres no kindness in your eyes
The way you look at me, it's just not right
I can tell what's going on this time
Theres a stranger in my life

You're not the person that I once knew
Are you scared to let them know it's you?
If they could only see you like I do
Then they would see a stranger too

Theres no kindness in your eyes
The way you look at me, it's just not right
I can tell what's going on this time
Theres a stranger in my life

You're not the person I once knew
Are you scared to let them know it's you?
If they could only see you like I do
Then they would see a stranger too

I'm home....

Man, I'm so tired... Exotic Dance is awesome fun! LoL... My thighs hurt like hell now.. =)

But I'm happy.. =) and tired..

Will blog tomorrow I guess.. When I'm less tired..

Have a great weekend!

Yesterday...

Lyrics:

I just can't believe you're gone
Still waiting for morning to come
Wanna see if the sun will rise
Even without you by my side (ooh yeah)

When we had so much in store
Tell me what is it I'm reaching for
When we're through building memories
I'll hold yesterday in my heart, in my heart

Chorus:
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made (plans we made)
They can take the music that we'll never play
All the broken dreams
Take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know (no no)
They can take the places that we said we would go
All the broken dreams
Take everything
Just take it away (oh oh), but they can never have yesterday

You always used to stay
I should be thankful for everyday
Heaven knows what the future holds
Or atleast how the story goes (but I never believed them 'til now)

I know i'll see you again i'm sure
No, it's not selfish to ask for more
One more night, one more day
One more smile on you face
But they can't take yesterday

Chorus:
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made (no no)
They can take the music that we'll never play (they can take the music that we'll never play)
All the broken dreams (oh, my broken dreams)
Take everything (take everything)
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday (oh oh oh)
They can take the future that we'll never know (we'll never know)
They can take the places that we said we would go (huh oh oh)
All the broken dreams (all the broken dreams)
Take everything (take everything)
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday

I thought our days would last forever (but it wasn't our destiny)
'Cause in my mind, we had so much time
But i was so wrong
Now i can, believe that
I can still find the strength in the moments we made
I'm looking back on yesterday

Chorus:
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made (ooh ooh)
They can take the music that we'll never play (no)
All the broken dreams (all the broken dreams)
Take everything (take everything)
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday (yesterday)
They can take the future that we'll never know (yeah ah)
They can take the places that we said we would go (that we said we would go)
All the broken dreams (all our broken dreams)
Take everything (take everything)
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday (they can never hace yesterday)

Ooooh...
(All the broken dreams take everything)
But they can never have yesterday

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Sometimes, I wonder.. Does he still think of me? The memories we had? Does he miss me? Knowing him, I don't think he does, but there's a little part of me who wants to believe he does.. That little part of me wants to believe that what we had meant something to him. That there were actual real feelings involved.

But the realistic me has to be strong for myself. Because of the way he treated me, the things he said to me and the hurt he dealt me, I must show him that I can go on without him. That whatever he did to me doesn't hurt me anymore.

But...

I still think about him. When I'm listening to sad songs. When I see/hear something that reminds me of him. When I'm out. When I'm home alone. When I'm lying in bed. When I'm at work.

Why is it so hard to forget? Sigh...

Anyways, enjoy the song. It's one of the best song out of Leona Lewis' album, Spirit.