Have you ever felt..

like you're just walking around like a zombie? Like you dun have any meaning in life? Like you're always constantly tired? And when you are alone, you feel really lonely...?

Is this one of the signs of depression?

I think I'm at the stage of melancholy.. What do you think... I really love this poster, cos it's quite emo..


=)

Have a good weekend everyone...

Ignore...

the previous post..

All I can say was that it was written under very a heavy influence of alcohol... I'm never going to drink that much again.

I have bruises all over my kneecap and shin. Bleah, all from falling from a small flight of stairs... And it hurts like a muthaf*cker..

Also, a few things have happened to me lately and I'm kinda knocked off balanced.

I'm now trying to concentrate on finishing an essay due tomorrow.. Anyways, have a great week...

It's almost the weekends again.. Woo hoo~!

I tried...

Calling you when I needed you.. But I couldn't get you...

I came home after a night of drinking too much, and I wanted to talk to you cos all I was thinking of all night was you...

Something happened and I needed someone I could talk to, but I couldn't get through to you..

I guess this means we're not meant to be.. With so many factors against us...

Why is it the things we want never come true...?

Gong Xi Fa Cai~!

It's the first day.. Pretty much the same as always, wake up, greet the elders in Malaysia through the phone, get breakfast ready, then visiting and eating loads..

Same old same old.. CNY no longer excites me as much as I was younger. Doesn't help that I've been thinking alot more..

Was actually thinking of hopping down to Australia in March for a short holiday and to see someone, but I think it's not a very good idea. Someone said something which I thought made really good sense: Dun make anyone a priority unless it's serious.

Right now, we're just friends.

And friends dun do and say stuffs that are too personal. So I guess I should restrain myself a little on that aspect. Much as I hate it, we both made a decision. So we're sticking to it and be normal friends..

I'm such a complicated person. Trying not to think so much about it now... I'm supposed to be rushing assignments actually... Have 4 assignments due this Wednesday. And I think I'm gonna go out and party the weekend away I guess.. That's what single people do, right?

Anyways...

Hope everyone have a good Ox year, and get loads of red packets.. =) Wishing all a prosperous year.

2.36 am...

And I'm still up...

Came across the song the other day.. And I can kinda can relate this song to all my past relationships...

Maybe it would have been better, if things had been the way it was... Feelings complicate everything..

I'm tired, feeling helpless and completely at a loss of what to do..

Now that I've reached this junction, where do I go? What are my options? Do I wait for some signal? Do I just choose a path and go on ahead, whether by myself or with someone?

Sigh...

Anyways, hope you like the song...

The One I Gave My Heart To - Aaliyah

ZzzZz..

I couldn't sleep last night because of things running through my head...

I can say I am starting to feel confused and mentally tired now.. Schoolwork, work-work and personal stuffs...

I hate this feeling, I hate this place.. Wish I could just run away...

Busy Bumble Bee..

It's been a hectic week with school, assignments, labs, studying for exams and fnally cleaning up my room for CNY. I'm actually looking forward to the end of the month cause it's gonna be closer to my birthday and towards March where I'll be plannign a 3 day getaway with someone special.

School-wise, its tougher and more interesting this term, but nothing I cannot handle. Also, I've been trying to watch this Taiwan drama (Fated to love you) which is funny, sad, romantic and very unrealistic but just kept me guessing every step of the way.

Other than that, nothing up coming for me cept for more studying this weekend, shopping with Debs for CNY clothes and going for my Muay Thai class.

=) I'm over my depression as you can see, just that maybe I was feeling hormonal that 2 days..

Anyways, it's almost the weekend and hope you guys have a great remaining week~!

I've decided...

to not think too much.. I will not get my expectations up and also will not get too used to anything..

Like I said, I can feel a change..

So I need to detach myself a bit more before I do get hurt..

I dunno why I'm feeling like this though... Maybe I'm missing something?

Starting to feel..

a lil depressed...

Just feel a lil helpless.. and tired.. and rejected...

No one seems to like me..

Sigh...

1st Lesson..

was great.. It was a very different experience and was just all out a great workout in my opinion. It's a great way to relieve stress too, since you're kicking and punching sandbags. The pain I have today is bearable after my Muay Thai last night.


-My new pair of Boxing Gloves-

Another great thing about the class is there's a roomful of topless, nicely toned male bodies also training with you. Haha.. Not that I was really looking, but their legs look so good... I want legs like that too..

But back to the training, I will definitely continue with this form of exercise. I wanna tone my legs and body, lose some weight and feel more healthy. Also, I'm there to relieve stress, considering how pent up I am because of work, school and random incidents.

I can feel a change in everything around me. It's kinda scary in a way, cause it gives me a sense of deja vu all over again. I'm trying hard not to let it bother me, but it still does. Maybe I'm thinking too much and I should just let it progress along and see how it ends up..

Thats about it I guess, have a great weekend everyone~!

This David...

should have won instead of David Cook. His 2 new singles from the 1st album is pretty good. And he's also pretty cute too...

=)

Hope you enjoy the song that's been spinning in my head the whole day.. Have a good weekend everyone..

Craving...

I'm actually weirdly, craving for meat.. Both red and white meat..

Hahaha... I actually want to cook something this weekend.. But I dun think I have the time..

Will be going to the first ever Singapore tattoo Show this weekend, hopefully coming back home with a new piece of art on my virgin skin.. =P I've already contacted the tattoo-ist I wanted, just waiting for him to reply to me now. I'm kinda nervous because I'm a little afraid of the pain and feeling extremely excited that I am finally going to do it. Although I do have a back up plan if it doesn't go through.

Also, these 2 weeks of holiday mood is fast fading especially since I finally registered in my brain that I have an assignment due on the 13th Jan.. Rawr~!

Oh well, busy 1st week of the year, which is always a good thing in my book..

Happy new year everyone, may you all have a great year ahead~!

Happy New Year~!

Hope everyone had an awesome time resting, catching up with friends/family and celebrating/indulging in good food, drinks and company.

Usually people make New Year's resolutions for a new year. Things they want to do, and accomplish so they can look forward to a whole year. For me, all I really want is to finish up my studies, get my license, save money, lose weight and to be able to spend time with my loved ones.

Looking back on 2008, it was an up and down ride. I had the most memorable year, both with good and bad experiences. I also learned a lot of new things about people, myself and to loosen up and just have fun while I still can.

So, what has 2008 taught you? Do you have any New Year's resolution like I do?

Wishing all a great year ahead and Happy New Year~!